i have decided that i need a place to vent my ramblings in order to get through this journey (again) just to get things out of my head sometimes!
a potted history of me...
overweight all of my life , first diet at age 11! have been to ww, sw, slimming magazine club, slimfast atkins and cd.
lost 6 stone on atkins, took 3 yrs to put most of it back on...
done cd in 2009, lost 8 and half stone, got to my desired size 12 and was delighted. though i didnt "feel" any different, not sure whether i should have?
i went straight away to slimming world, to use this as a way finding out how to eat real food without putting weight back on, now i was "eating" again, but sadly didnt really last at that....
fast forward 2 years and i now have nearly 7 stone to lose again!
i've been back on cd for nearly 2 weeks, and i have to say i'm finding it so much harder this time. i was sickeningly perfect on the first go, despite some side effects of cd, and i soooo wish it was that easy again!
i know it works, i proved it works, but this time my head is fighting me.
on my first attmept at cd my periods were really messed up. as i had the injection i really never had one. once on cd for about 2 months i started having them again, monthly at first, and then by about 6 months in, they were virtually a daily occurance.
this time i only got to day 4 and they are here with avengence! and the thought of 6 months or so of this kinda fills me with dread to be honest.
the other difference on this attmept is that i am now working and going to college, as opposed to being a stay at home mum. i feel a lot more "drained".
i resorted to some chicken on friday night, and my workday yesterday was horrendously long, so today i feel like poo!
i am hoping that writing this all down, will help me stop mulling it over in my head all the time and allow me see a bit clearer and plan my way out of my "funk"
and be happier keeping on track!
if you've got to this bit, well done for reading and not giving up! say tuned for further installments!
a potted history of me...
overweight all of my life , first diet at age 11! have been to ww, sw, slimming magazine club, slimfast atkins and cd.
lost 6 stone on atkins, took 3 yrs to put most of it back on...
done cd in 2009, lost 8 and half stone, got to my desired size 12 and was delighted. though i didnt "feel" any different, not sure whether i should have?
i went straight away to slimming world, to use this as a way finding out how to eat real food without putting weight back on, now i was "eating" again, but sadly didnt really last at that....
fast forward 2 years and i now have nearly 7 stone to lose again!
i've been back on cd for nearly 2 weeks, and i have to say i'm finding it so much harder this time. i was sickeningly perfect on the first go, despite some side effects of cd, and i soooo wish it was that easy again!
i know it works, i proved it works, but this time my head is fighting me.
on my first attmept at cd my periods were really messed up. as i had the injection i really never had one. once on cd for about 2 months i started having them again, monthly at first, and then by about 6 months in, they were virtually a daily occurance.
this time i only got to day 4 and they are here with avengence! and the thought of 6 months or so of this kinda fills me with dread to be honest.
the other difference on this attmept is that i am now working and going to college, as opposed to being a stay at home mum. i feel a lot more "drained".
i resorted to some chicken on friday night, and my workday yesterday was horrendously long, so today i feel like poo!
i am hoping that writing this all down, will help me stop mulling it over in my head all the time and allow me see a bit clearer and plan my way out of my "funk"
and be happier keeping on track!
if you've got to this bit, well done for reading and not giving up! say tuned for further installments!