Sussex Girl
Full Member
Hi everyone who reads this :wave_cry:
Well I haven't been around so much the last few days because since last Wednesday I've been totally off the wagon.
I've been struggling with SS for about a week (mentally), but struggled on, until Wednesday when I had my weigh in and I'd only lost 1lb. Well that was the final straw, that combined with family problems sent me into a 'I'm going to stuff my face' mood. This has carried on relentlessly until last night. I have eaten so much food I wouldn't have believed it possible, and the sad thing is that I haven't cared one bit.
I've promised my CDC and good friend DQ that I will get back on track today, even though I'm still struggling mentally and no way am I in the SS zone. I don't know why I've lost the motive but I have, however I HAVE to do this damn diet - zone or not!!
So here I am again, 8 weeks since I started, and no way can I get near the scales until a week Wednesday. I'm going to miss this weeks weigh in because it will just send me mentally back again, I just hope I manage to lose some in the next 9 days.
I just want to eat, I don't want to do this any more. Yes I know all the reasons why I want to do it, but somehow they don't seem to count right now. How can your head be so totally into this one minute and suddenly I couldn't care less about doing it, even though I hate being fat
If you're still with this long drawn-out rant thanks ( I did warn you it was long and self-indulgent), however I need to put this down in writing.
I've had 5 days of eating mountains of food, and it's taught me that I still have major food issues. I'd done 8 weeks SS, so my stomach should have been much smaller, yet I've managed to put away 1000s of calories without feeling bloated or uncomfortable, so I know I'm going to have the same battle when I reach goal.
Why do I love food so much? I ask myself this all the time. I'm going to have this battle for the rest of my life. I seem to be incapable of eating normal amounts of food. It's either nothing (SS) or ridiculous amounts.
I also have to try and go back to basics with SS. I adore the bars and the husks but I honestly think they slow down my weight loss. This means I have to be stuck with 3 drinks a day, which I find incredibly boring after having husks and bars. I would eat husks every meal if I could.
So here I am, 1pm today, just got home from work and I'm just about to have my first tetra, even though I want husks!!!
I'm still tempted to eat though. I guess I've been spoiled mentally for 8 weeks, I just didn't want the food before because I was so focused. I truly believe that 99% of the success rate of this diet is down to your head being in the right place, enabling you to carry on with it day after day. I'm just going to pray that my head gets back in the right place soon, otherwise every minute of every day is going to be a struggle for me.
Thanks to anyone reading this. It's more for my own benefit than anyone elses, so feel free to ignore it
Well I haven't been around so much the last few days because since last Wednesday I've been totally off the wagon.
I've been struggling with SS for about a week (mentally), but struggled on, until Wednesday when I had my weigh in and I'd only lost 1lb. Well that was the final straw, that combined with family problems sent me into a 'I'm going to stuff my face' mood. This has carried on relentlessly until last night. I have eaten so much food I wouldn't have believed it possible, and the sad thing is that I haven't cared one bit.
I've promised my CDC and good friend DQ that I will get back on track today, even though I'm still struggling mentally and no way am I in the SS zone. I don't know why I've lost the motive but I have, however I HAVE to do this damn diet - zone or not!!
So here I am again, 8 weeks since I started, and no way can I get near the scales until a week Wednesday. I'm going to miss this weeks weigh in because it will just send me mentally back again, I just hope I manage to lose some in the next 9 days.
I just want to eat, I don't want to do this any more. Yes I know all the reasons why I want to do it, but somehow they don't seem to count right now. How can your head be so totally into this one minute and suddenly I couldn't care less about doing it, even though I hate being fat
If you're still with this long drawn-out rant thanks ( I did warn you it was long and self-indulgent), however I need to put this down in writing.
I've had 5 days of eating mountains of food, and it's taught me that I still have major food issues. I'd done 8 weeks SS, so my stomach should have been much smaller, yet I've managed to put away 1000s of calories without feeling bloated or uncomfortable, so I know I'm going to have the same battle when I reach goal.
Why do I love food so much? I ask myself this all the time. I'm going to have this battle for the rest of my life. I seem to be incapable of eating normal amounts of food. It's either nothing (SS) or ridiculous amounts.
I also have to try and go back to basics with SS. I adore the bars and the husks but I honestly think they slow down my weight loss. This means I have to be stuck with 3 drinks a day, which I find incredibly boring after having husks and bars. I would eat husks every meal if I could.
So here I am, 1pm today, just got home from work and I'm just about to have my first tetra, even though I want husks!!!
I'm still tempted to eat though. I guess I've been spoiled mentally for 8 weeks, I just didn't want the food before because I was so focused. I truly believe that 99% of the success rate of this diet is down to your head being in the right place, enabling you to carry on with it day after day. I'm just going to pray that my head gets back in the right place soon, otherwise every minute of every day is going to be a struggle for me.
Thanks to anyone reading this. It's more for my own benefit than anyone elses, so feel free to ignore it