dazzler5
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I don't actually start cd until wednesday...well thats when i meet the cdc for the first time i am hoping to start thursday first thing...is it sad to say i am really excited???
I have decided to keep a diary and am going to start way back when my food problem started......
Well what can i say...i have never been small...i don't know what thats like!!! lol lol but i would really like to try it!!!y
As a child my mom only cooked two types of food...cooked dinner-everything roasted or with added fat-no vegetables,or something deep fried or oven baked with chips!!!
To say that i had a limited diet was an understatement but for a long time that is what i thought was normal...it was all i knew after all but as i grew older i knew it wasn't and started to take control of my diet.
From the age of nine i was the main carer for my sister because she was a late 'mistake' and my mom could not cope so i had to grow up fast and i was a very lonely overly serious girl whose only comfort was food :-(
When i was 17 and at college training to be a nursery nurse i went on the super slim diet and lost 4 and a half stone and got down to ten stone still eating a very limited diet...jacket potato or salad lol lol lots of variety huh?This was the lowest i had been for years and for the first time in my life i felt in control of my life and even a little pretty.
It was at this group that i met my husband to be......
I will add more tomorrow of my journey to where i am now i think it is important for me to write down all that has happened even if no-one reads it or responds because it will help me to let go of the past and move on without the baggage to a bright new slim future!!!
I have decided to keep a diary and am going to start way back when my food problem started......
Well what can i say...i have never been small...i don't know what thats like!!! lol lol but i would really like to try it!!!y
As a child my mom only cooked two types of food...cooked dinner-everything roasted or with added fat-no vegetables,or something deep fried or oven baked with chips!!!
To say that i had a limited diet was an understatement but for a long time that is what i thought was normal...it was all i knew after all but as i grew older i knew it wasn't and started to take control of my diet.
From the age of nine i was the main carer for my sister because she was a late 'mistake' and my mom could not cope so i had to grow up fast and i was a very lonely overly serious girl whose only comfort was food :-(
When i was 17 and at college training to be a nursery nurse i went on the super slim diet and lost 4 and a half stone and got down to ten stone still eating a very limited diet...jacket potato or salad lol lol lots of variety huh?This was the lowest i had been for years and for the first time in my life i felt in control of my life and even a little pretty.
It was at this group that i met my husband to be......
I will add more tomorrow of my journey to where i am now i think it is important for me to write down all that has happened even if no-one reads it or responds because it will help me to let go of the past and move on without the baggage to a bright new slim future!!!