Misdee
Silver Member
As some know, i have this huge mental block about losing weight, and get stupidly scared about it.
The last few weeks, i have been on self sabatarge mode, and snacking. A lot of the time I havent managed my 3 packs as well, which is terrible.
Today, when i woke up, I made a decision to not let my fear overtake me. I have no idea on what i weigh now, as my home scales are dead (must get them sorted as hubby needs to weigh daily in case he starts retaining fluid, increases of 4lb or more and he needs to call hospital). I have a feeling that i will possibly have gained this week. I am not worried about that, cant do anything about it. But I do need to get over this fear completely. I know that life wont miraculously change as soon as I fit into a size 12, but i do know that a lot of my self confidence (or lack of) is down to my concerns about my weight and how others perceive me. I am Smiley Sarah, always good for a laugh. Losing weight, well, it may mean people see me differently, will it change my personality? I dont know. But I do hope that my self confidence increases soon.
So today, 100% SS. am back in ketosis already, have been shivering all evening in a new jumper. I did some clothes shopping, some new undies as was fed up of my old ones slipping down as I walked, a new summer denim jacket i na size 18 (can almost button it, i figured I wasnt far off size 20 for jackets with my boobs shrinking), a pair of trousers and two casual tops, one in an 18, one in a 16. And the jumper i have on now. My two eldest daughters also made me buy some jewellery, which i have to say, they do have good tastes.
I get weighed tomorrow morning, am dreading it, but also looking forward to it at the same time.
The last few weeks, i have been on self sabatarge mode, and snacking. A lot of the time I havent managed my 3 packs as well, which is terrible.
Today, when i woke up, I made a decision to not let my fear overtake me. I have no idea on what i weigh now, as my home scales are dead (must get them sorted as hubby needs to weigh daily in case he starts retaining fluid, increases of 4lb or more and he needs to call hospital). I have a feeling that i will possibly have gained this week. I am not worried about that, cant do anything about it. But I do need to get over this fear completely. I know that life wont miraculously change as soon as I fit into a size 12, but i do know that a lot of my self confidence (or lack of) is down to my concerns about my weight and how others perceive me. I am Smiley Sarah, always good for a laugh. Losing weight, well, it may mean people see me differently, will it change my personality? I dont know. But I do hope that my self confidence increases soon.
So today, 100% SS. am back in ketosis already, have been shivering all evening in a new jumper. I did some clothes shopping, some new undies as was fed up of my old ones slipping down as I walked, a new summer denim jacket i na size 18 (can almost button it, i figured I wasnt far off size 20 for jackets with my boobs shrinking), a pair of trousers and two casual tops, one in an 18, one in a 16. And the jumper i have on now. My two eldest daughters also made me buy some jewellery, which i have to say, they do have good tastes.
I get weighed tomorrow morning, am dreading it, but also looking forward to it at the same time.