Crystal, try not to panic. Can you ring your CDC for advice, or for a pep-talk? You've lost 12lbs and that is something to be proud of - it's proof you can do this. CD is tough, and it looks like your head is not in the right zone at the moment... have you thought about trying 810 or 1000 plans where you can eat small meals, as that way perhaps you'd feel less deprived & maybe less prone to binge? Or check out amazon for books on tackling emotional eating/binge eating? If you have this tendency (as I do) it is not enough to diet, you need to try and work out why you can behave in self-destructive ways and come up with some tactics to help you stop. Many people swear by CBT therapy, and there's a thread on here about it too. Take a deep breath and relax a little and step away from the kitchen... you can do it. Sending a hug.
xxx