Minerva
...we're sinking deeper.
I guess I had this a long time coming... Been overweight all of my childhood and in my teens I reached size 20... which eventually reached size 24 by the age of 22... More dress sizes than I had years. A joke really. But lucky me, it didn't stop me finding the man of my dreams, someone who loved me for ME and made me crawl out of a deep dark hole I was in for so long. Bless this man. But, we both have a problem we share... We both love food too much. I have an addiction to it and binge eating disorder, he just simply can't say no to some tasty temptation with second helpings. ... With him, we went on Lighter Life for a year and lost a total of 24 stone between us both. But that was a while ago... About 3 years have gone since then... I maintained for a while, was a size 8-10 and quite happy (despite my newly acquired FEAR of food...)... but then... an awful tragedy fell upon my shoulders in spring last year and I gained a lot of weight back... Granted not all of it - it would take great lengths to regain 12 stone. I've not let that happen... But I believe I've regained about half of it back. ... and not been able to lose it again for the last year and a half... I hate how this is dragging on... and how I'm sinking into an eating disorder, eating myself to death.
But, with a positive mind-set, I think I can beat my addiction to food. I quit smoking and I know I should be able to do this too. Oh it will be hard... very, very hard. But, I'll give it my best shot... and having a small audience, a small place to write my thoughts down, this forum has always helped me. I re-located here from my usual Lighter Life forums, I suppose to escape the humiliation of my neverending stuggle with trying to get it back down ... often ending unsuccessfully...
Starting tomorrow... I guess I'll be preparing myself for the ... hunger. It'll be severe, but I need to push through. Here's to a good start...
But, with a positive mind-set, I think I can beat my addiction to food. I quit smoking and I know I should be able to do this too. Oh it will be hard... very, very hard. But, I'll give it my best shot... and having a small audience, a small place to write my thoughts down, this forum has always helped me. I re-located here from my usual Lighter Life forums, I suppose to escape the humiliation of my neverending stuggle with trying to get it back down ... often ending unsuccessfully...
Starting tomorrow... I guess I'll be preparing myself for the ... hunger. It'll be severe, but I need to push through. Here's to a good start...