Day 47.
Feeling normal today - hangovers are really not nice which is why I drink so very rarely. Being half Russian/ half Latvian - there's a myth that all Russians must drink or can handle it and there's always vodka everywhere... Well, actually - if you're a poor class or degenerate - then you drink a lot. Anyone who is normal, having the normal job (I guess equivalent of UK 'middle class' - without any of the luxuries) wouldn't touch alcohol unless it was a special occasion. And special occasions would only happen maybe 4 times a year. My dad doesn't touch alcohol at all, neither does my sister. My granny would even always ask when I would say I met a guy - her first questions would be - "Does he drink? Does he smoke?" I'd say no (even if it's a bit of a lie!) and she'd say "He's a good boy then."
I'm the odd one out in my family because I drink sometimes - but I don't get this English custom of 'Going down to the pub' at every opportunity - even once a week seems excessive. Why get drunk so often - or at all? Sometimes I feel I am the only one who can handle the drink (i.e. start drinking water when I start feeling the alcohol) while the rest of the English around me (and I hang out with Computer Geeks - so fairly tame crowd) go all out -every-time. What's the point? I usually feel fine the next day while they're all dopey eyed and wrapped in duvets feeling rough.
Granted yesterday I felt a little hung over - but my body wasn't prepared for the little I had. Not much food to soak it all up, plus, it was mostly the pulsating tinnitus in my right ear that was the problem. All day, banging in my head. Thankfully it's gone today.
Either way, rant over. So I was thinking... I am getting very upset over this weight thing and how long it's all going to take, blah blah blah... I really have to realise that - actually it's not that I'll suddenly 'feel awesome' when I reach a magic number on the scales. I'll start feeling more awesome as times goes by. I remember starting to feel good at about 11st and a bit - when you're still a bit chubby, but you can pass off being normal. I think I have to stop stressing out so much about the numbers. It will come, and I know I'll feel better and better with every stone that goes off.
So, I made a mini-ticker in my signature to my first big goal - to not be 'OBESE' anymore! At least on the BMI.
Mini goal like that - makes it more achievable. Less far away and less depressing! Can't wait for it to be other other side of the half point.
Right, off I go to study EU law... fun fun.
