mrbigbelly
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hi im MrBigBelly
i currently weigh 296lb aka 21st and have started exante today, i have done exante before last year and had success accept if you can believe it i got "too comfortable" in my body - . im going to keep a dairy which will be daily but ill probably type my thoughts and feelings in here throughout the day so it will be a more detailed account of my journey than oh i drank a strawberry shake and 2 porridges today. (no offence to those who do but i feel it will be greater use to myself later down the line with more information for myself). the big wake up call for me was yesterday when i felt really hungry and their was nothing in the fridge i got showered, shaved and dressed in jogging bottoms and a New York Rangers ice hockey top (basically the only items of clothing which fit me now) as i got my keys and money -all ready to eat pizza in my car- i caught myself in the mirror and i was just overwhelmed with sadness and anger with the thoughts of how i let myself get that bad, i cant go out in this but this is all ive got, and the fact that i was ashamed of myself, i actually loathed myself i felt like if i saw myself in the street i would of judged myself as someone with a low quality of life and felt sorry for them...
so yeah as i said i currently stand at 296lb and this is the heaviest ive ever been...i false started two weeks ago and had the plan of not going on the scales as i was too embarrassed, well i just had my wake up call i cant go on like this im a 20 year old guy with the whole ted from how i met your mother thing going on, a bit young for the whole love and marriage thing in my mind i know but i decided from an early age id get a good job after university and then if i was in a happy relationship/marriage id have a child, but again getting off the point.
so anyway 20 at 296lb and im going to america for a year for studying mid to late august and i would love to be around 200lb a biiig ask i know as i dont know the exact date i leave i did an estimate of about 81 days so that leaves me needing over 1lb a day ( i know its ni on impossible) but here are my aims and reasons for doing what im doing so i can look back and reflect and hopefully keep motivated:
what i want to achieve:
and why:
i currently weigh 296lb aka 21st and have started exante today, i have done exante before last year and had success accept if you can believe it i got "too comfortable" in my body - . im going to keep a dairy which will be daily but ill probably type my thoughts and feelings in here throughout the day so it will be a more detailed account of my journey than oh i drank a strawberry shake and 2 porridges today. (no offence to those who do but i feel it will be greater use to myself later down the line with more information for myself). the big wake up call for me was yesterday when i felt really hungry and their was nothing in the fridge i got showered, shaved and dressed in jogging bottoms and a New York Rangers ice hockey top (basically the only items of clothing which fit me now) as i got my keys and money -all ready to eat pizza in my car- i caught myself in the mirror and i was just overwhelmed with sadness and anger with the thoughts of how i let myself get that bad, i cant go out in this but this is all ive got, and the fact that i was ashamed of myself, i actually loathed myself i felt like if i saw myself in the street i would of judged myself as someone with a low quality of life and felt sorry for them...
so yeah as i said i currently stand at 296lb and this is the heaviest ive ever been...i false started two weeks ago and had the plan of not going on the scales as i was too embarrassed, well i just had my wake up call i cant go on like this im a 20 year old guy with the whole ted from how i met your mother thing going on, a bit young for the whole love and marriage thing in my mind i know but i decided from an early age id get a good job after university and then if i was in a happy relationship/marriage id have a child, but again getting off the point.
so anyway 20 at 296lb and im going to america for a year for studying mid to late august and i would love to be around 200lb a biiig ask i know as i dont know the exact date i leave i did an estimate of about 81 days so that leaves me needing over 1lb a day ( i know its ni on impossible) but here are my aims and reasons for doing what im doing so i can look back and reflect and hopefully keep motivated:
what i want to achieve:
- reach 200lbs ( big target)
- fit into old clothes from last summer when i was on the diet
- be happier in myself
- get self confidence
- just feel happy in my body
and why:
- to be happier
- to be able to smile about my body
- to feel good
- to feel not ashamed
- for my health
