Kaylee
Full Member
Wanted to introduce myself a little more so here goes...
I have always been big I was born a big baby, I went through school bigger than the average in my classes and was teased about until I was around 13. I started high school made lots of new friends but still got the odd name shouted at me. I had things thrown at me on the school bus and in school, things such as food half ate sandwiches, drinks bottle with the 'oi fatty' shouted to me. I had always tried to healthy eat but as a child it was so hard and being from a big family (8 kids) there was also something to tempt me.
So I left school at 16 after my GCSES and started college, I left college after my course at 18 and started weight watchers with my mum, I did really well lost 2 stone. Then my local meeting stopped and it completely put me off track. I then started my first job at 19 this soon ended at it was only temp. Then with employment being how it is it was a real struggle to get a job. So I was constantly bored and had nothing to do, so ate.
In Feb 2010 aged 20 I met my boyfriend now ex, who was also 20 who I knew since day one he was 'the one' still is. But always thought no he will never want me, look at me! Until one day he asked me to go stay with him (he lived up north) so after thinking it through I did, and it was the most enjoyable time with him, was so nice for someone to accept you for you. So every few weeks I would stay with him for several days. One point I thought wow this is it, was so happy and people could see it. People say you know when their 'the one' you just tell. And I could, made me feel so confident and believe in myself.
Then months later my whole world felt as if it had crashed around me, I suffered a miscarriage at 20 and within hours of finding out he left me, I guess he just couldn't hack it. He cried his eyes out to me and said he'll always be here. He was there for me I suppose, we haven't seen other since the last time I visited him prior to my miscarriage, so he was a phone call away, but I did go through most of it on my own, I told nobody expect for my GP, I felt useless and a failure. I was unemployed, depressed and spent my days up in my room and would just cry, I remember spending my 21st birthday upstairs, crying. (regret not celebrating now
) This is when I started to comfort eat and piled on so much weight, I just couldn't be bothered anymore.
It's coming up to a year now and I have just began talking to my ex again on the odd occasion, and again hes given me confidence again and made me realise there is more to live than this, I'm 21 coming up to 22 in two months and just want to live my life and have fun and my weight is stopping me. So have decided this is it. I'm ready And I will shed the weight and also go back to college to study health and social to help me pursue my career.
Finally, I have chosen to go back on weight watchers and do it all myself, it's only been a week tomorrow but it's going well and I am actually enjoying it. I have around 8 stone to shed. I feel I have a purpose every morning to get up now and life is slowing looking better. I know from now on it can only get better. Just thought I'd share this all with you and make this my weight loss diary
I have always been big I was born a big baby, I went through school bigger than the average in my classes and was teased about until I was around 13. I started high school made lots of new friends but still got the odd name shouted at me. I had things thrown at me on the school bus and in school, things such as food half ate sandwiches, drinks bottle with the 'oi fatty' shouted to me. I had always tried to healthy eat but as a child it was so hard and being from a big family (8 kids) there was also something to tempt me.
So I left school at 16 after my GCSES and started college, I left college after my course at 18 and started weight watchers with my mum, I did really well lost 2 stone. Then my local meeting stopped and it completely put me off track. I then started my first job at 19 this soon ended at it was only temp. Then with employment being how it is it was a real struggle to get a job. So I was constantly bored and had nothing to do, so ate.
In Feb 2010 aged 20 I met my boyfriend now ex, who was also 20 who I knew since day one he was 'the one' still is. But always thought no he will never want me, look at me! Until one day he asked me to go stay with him (he lived up north) so after thinking it through I did, and it was the most enjoyable time with him, was so nice for someone to accept you for you. So every few weeks I would stay with him for several days. One point I thought wow this is it, was so happy and people could see it. People say you know when their 'the one' you just tell. And I could, made me feel so confident and believe in myself.
Then months later my whole world felt as if it had crashed around me, I suffered a miscarriage at 20 and within hours of finding out he left me, I guess he just couldn't hack it. He cried his eyes out to me and said he'll always be here. He was there for me I suppose, we haven't seen other since the last time I visited him prior to my miscarriage, so he was a phone call away, but I did go through most of it on my own, I told nobody expect for my GP, I felt useless and a failure. I was unemployed, depressed and spent my days up in my room and would just cry, I remember spending my 21st birthday upstairs, crying. (regret not celebrating now
) This is when I started to comfort eat and piled on so much weight, I just couldn't be bothered anymore. It's coming up to a year now and I have just began talking to my ex again on the odd occasion, and again hes given me confidence again and made me realise there is more to live than this, I'm 21 coming up to 22 in two months and just want to live my life and have fun and my weight is stopping me. So have decided this is it. I'm ready And I will shed the weight and also go back to college to study health and social to help me pursue my career.
Finally, I have chosen to go back on weight watchers and do it all myself, it's only been a week tomorrow but it's going well and I am actually enjoying it. I have around 8 stone to shed. I feel I have a purpose every morning to get up now and life is slowing looking better. I know from now on it can only get better. Just thought I'd share this all with you and make this my weight loss diary
