pocketwocket
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I decided I needed something to do during those difficult times of wanting to snack! So what better than to start a bit of a blog about my journey to becomming slim!So where do I start. Well what made me do this? After years of being slim, I suddenly piled on the pounds after a few sad events in my life, including losing my little boy at 23 weeks. I comfort ate and became very depressed, and got into complete denial about the weight I was piling on. A few extra glassed of vino in the evenings, snacking and portions far too large. Easily done.
I am desperate to fulfill my dream of being 'Me' again, and also to become a mummy again one day, which I will not risk while I am this size. I am lucky- my husband loves me dearly and finds me attractive whatever size I am- but I want to be 'ME' again. Thats not a size zero or anything- just someone who feels nice in a pair of jeans
So- it was a case of - deep breath, realise that you can either carry on like this and be really unhappy - or do something about it.
Don't get me wrong this wasn't easy- I needed the switch- the ping! moment- the feeling of being able to do it. I dont know where it came from because I have tried and failed so many times in the past 2 years. But I suddenly felt it was my time.
So last Monday I started, and my god I am determined! It hasn't been easy especially cooking a roast pork sunday dinner yesterday for the family (OOOO CRACKLING! lol) but I have managed to resist any temptation so far (yeah I know its only been a week- but I feel strong this time! lol). I have rewarded myself in the evening by cooking myself a really nice low fat meal- something that I know I will enjoy and had a couple- and no more- of treats this weekend.
I am really hoping this is it and I will be able to get past the demons this time!- I was looking at the goodies on offer last night at dinner time and just kept repeating to myself- 'Don't give in- You want to be slim!!' and I shall try and keep doing that.
Either that or my poor doggies will get thrown everything so I can't touch it
lol Anyway - I hope to keep this up to date- if for no other reason to help me by reading back, and looking how far I have come. Maybe I can motivate some people too like I have been motivated by your stories. It is good to not feel alone on your journey
Good luck everyone!
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P.S first weeks weigh in (on the Wii fit- and lost 6 pounds! - Yippeee! xxxx
