Thank you all so much! I will come back to this later to reply in full but I just wanted to say thank you for your support. The chocolate eating is an 'all or nothing' problem for me, and I have been stressed, down, etc, and I'm taking antidepressants for severe depression (which work, most of the time as most of the time I feel ok). I've just veered off track at the moment and I think in my mind I'm thinking I've blown it for another week so let's stock up on crap food now, and start again properly with SW next week - which I know is NOT a good way for me to be thinking! My home life is not what it should be at the moment so that doesn't help so I do have a problem with emotional eating. But I am SO good when I'm on track, that is one of the most annoying things!
I did SW for me, I wasn't pushed into it, it was the plan I chose and one I really do enjoy. I enjoy the food, the meetings, the weightloss when I'm on track, all of it. I have an extremely supportive group and I stay for Image Therapy 99% of the time, even when I've gained weight and I think that's a good thing. I'm just kicking myself for making the wrong choices grrrrr.
I usually have a yoghurt on top of my fruit (and a bit less fruit, and include a banana) for my breakfast, so there's a bit of protein, and I often have egg sandwiches (using HEXB for bread, and a couple of syns for extra light salad cream) at lunchtime, and sometimes I pile on some HEXA cheese triangles too so that keeps me going so I will start that again.
This 'binge' started a couple of weeks ago when I went out for my birthday and let myself have anything and everything for a lovely treat. Instead of getting back on track, I used it as an excuse to say I've blown it, and never quite managed to get back on track.
I'm going to stop taking my purse out with me when I do the school run, then I won't be able to go to the shops, and I will start planning my meals again. I'll ask my consultant for a food diary when I next WI and will write my food down for a couple of weeks.
This is a real up and down journey. Thank you again for all your support xx