Hi,
I joined in early January I think or late December with all the determination of losing weight. But then came summer and with summer came intense heatwaves that I couldn't exercise in.
Today I still haven't started a diet or exercise yet as I have just started college and have a part time job that is taking up my time with training and I just need to settle into a routine before I can do anything.
Today my parents told me I need to loose weight, I'm a size 20 and unlike some others my stomach shows and hangs over my pants. I know I need to loose weight, not for my parents but for myself. It has been cool this week but the temperatures here have been 43 degrees celcius and that's about 108 degrees farenheit, absolutely crazy so I'm stuck waiting until the weather cools down which might take 2 months from now and I really want to get started now.
I know I'm big which doesn't really matter to me I still feel good about myself, I'm a student so I have to diet from what groceries are bought home and can't afford the gymn so I will need to walk instead.
I just really got down because I am working as a receptionist and one male customer showed on his face what he thought of me and I could see "fat" written all over his face, this got to me and I don't have anyone to talk to about it who knows what it is like to be fat.
It was worse I had to go out on the weekend for my sister's going away party and that was fine then we had to walk through town on the main street at night where they have the night clubs to the kareoke bar and I felt self conscious and I stuck out like a sore thumb, I was the only fat person and here I was amongst normal to skinny people dressed up to go out, I just felt crushed and was dying to go home as I didn't really want to advertise my size on a busy street and in front of so many people, I just felt worse when I had to go outside for a cigarette. The street was packed with people passing by. And I nearly died with relief when we left to go home I couldn't get to the car fast enough.
Has anyone felt this way before, and if so what did you do. Normally I would just shrug this off but being the only fat person within miles just got to me, it's dented my self esteem.
Sorry if I don't reply I just don't have time to get to the computer that often.
I joined in early January I think or late December with all the determination of losing weight. But then came summer and with summer came intense heatwaves that I couldn't exercise in.
Today I still haven't started a diet or exercise yet as I have just started college and have a part time job that is taking up my time with training and I just need to settle into a routine before I can do anything.
Today my parents told me I need to loose weight, I'm a size 20 and unlike some others my stomach shows and hangs over my pants. I know I need to loose weight, not for my parents but for myself. It has been cool this week but the temperatures here have been 43 degrees celcius and that's about 108 degrees farenheit, absolutely crazy so I'm stuck waiting until the weather cools down which might take 2 months from now and I really want to get started now.
I know I'm big which doesn't really matter to me I still feel good about myself, I'm a student so I have to diet from what groceries are bought home and can't afford the gymn so I will need to walk instead.
I just really got down because I am working as a receptionist and one male customer showed on his face what he thought of me and I could see "fat" written all over his face, this got to me and I don't have anyone to talk to about it who knows what it is like to be fat.
It was worse I had to go out on the weekend for my sister's going away party and that was fine then we had to walk through town on the main street at night where they have the night clubs to the kareoke bar and I felt self conscious and I stuck out like a sore thumb, I was the only fat person and here I was amongst normal to skinny people dressed up to go out, I just felt crushed and was dying to go home as I didn't really want to advertise my size on a busy street and in front of so many people, I just felt worse when I had to go outside for a cigarette. The street was packed with people passing by. And I nearly died with relief when we left to go home I couldn't get to the car fast enough.
Has anyone felt this way before, and if so what did you do. Normally I would just shrug this off but being the only fat person within miles just got to me, it's dented my self esteem.
Sorry if I don't reply I just don't have time to get to the computer that often.
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