Well, with less than a stone to lose I failed miserably last night. I have a hellish virus, and just couldn't take anymore, reached for the fish, but couldn't stop. Then had chips
I didn't even enjoy it. Hubby phoned from Scotland and was so concerned that he told me not to worrry and to come off the diet if I needed too. I know he meant well and was just worried, but what I needed was a kick in the pants, not permission to eat!.
Well I didn't binge, six chips and a piece of boiled cod, but just couldn't face the packs, and then (because my muscles ached) hubby suggested I have a glass of wine and early night.
Well I did, but this morning I feel so guilty, I have let myself down big time. I am a big girl, I don't need permission to eat, I had just chosen not to for a while, now I'm back into pleasing everyone else again. I hate this part of the diet, I know I can be strong and overcome this, just need a bit of help to do so. I suppose it didn't help that my losses for the last two weeks haven't been that good, despite being very good on the diet. How stupid am I . I want to lose this last stone but don't have the oomph to do it.
To cap it all, I am off sick today and have just been phoned by work, who want to borrow a piece of my equipment and want me to DRIVE 22 miles to get it to them!!!!!
I can barely stand up let alone drive. This is ridiculous. Crazy thing is we are an Occupational Health Department!!!
I have told them that I'm not prepared to do that, wonder what will happen later.
Just felt the need to confess, and to start getting a handle on whats going on in my head again. I must be strong, be assertive, don't look for excuses. (this is going to confuse the hell out of poor old hubby).
I didn't even enjoy it. Hubby phoned from Scotland and was so concerned that he told me not to worrry and to come off the diet if I needed too. I know he meant well and was just worried, but what I needed was a kick in the pants, not permission to eat!.
Well I didn't binge, six chips and a piece of boiled cod, but just couldn't face the packs, and then (because my muscles ached) hubby suggested I have a glass of wine and early night.
Well I did, but this morning I feel so guilty, I have let myself down big time. I am a big girl, I don't need permission to eat, I had just chosen not to for a while, now I'm back into pleasing everyone else again. I hate this part of the diet, I know I can be strong and overcome this, just need a bit of help to do so. I suppose it didn't help that my losses for the last two weeks haven't been that good, despite being very good on the diet. How stupid am I . I want to lose this last stone but don't have the oomph to do it.
To cap it all, I am off sick today and have just been phoned by work, who want to borrow a piece of my equipment and want me to DRIVE 22 miles to get it to them!!!!!
I can barely stand up let alone drive. This is ridiculous. Crazy thing is we are an Occupational Health Department!!!
I have told them that I'm not prepared to do that, wonder what will happen later.
Just felt the need to confess, and to start getting a handle on whats going on in my head again. I must be strong, be assertive, don't look for excuses. (this is going to confuse the hell out of poor old hubby).