aww you're welcome hunni. Sometimes people will say "just get on with it", "you must give it 100%" or "i have done it and so can you" and these things are all true. But we are all different and sometimes we slip up even though we really want to stick to it. There is often no logical explanation for our behaviours. For some the journey is easier than others, some will go straight to "GO" and collect their £200 and others take a small detour (if you know what I mean!)
No-one would tell an addict to any other substances to "just dont have it", in one way it is that simple but in another it is not. Some people will recognise that dilemma. We know others can do it, we know others dont cheat - so why do I? This then leads to the doubts and self hatred that can be so destructive and perpetuates the yo yo effect.
Anyways sorry for the rant hun!! Just forget it, dust yourself off and start again tomorrow. xx