botozi
Full Member
I think i finally get the clue. All those years (i'm 40 now) that are behind me i used to abuse my body. I ate everything i liked without thinking about the trash i put in my mouth. I was a binge eater and i think i had days i was consuming thousands of calories. The scale moved upwards and upwards and the more i weight, the more depressed i got and the more i ate and so on. I also ate secretly so no one would notice (i thought). When i binged at home i used to hide the packages of the food i ate so my HB wouldn't find it but he knew all the time.
We have a daughter (7 years old) and one day she found some of those packages and she confronted me with it. "Mam, why do you always eat in secret" she asked me and that question made me feel so sad. I always tell here she has to eat properly but behind her back i did the opposite. I was in therapy and i'll spare you the details but i couldn't get control of the food.
Since i started CD i finally get the clue. My body is a holy temple, i only have one and i better take good care of it.
Apart of that, loosing weight makes me look much prettier and i enjoy the compliments which are coming my way so now and then. I'm changing and my HB and daughter see that too and they encourage me so well!
I'm so very happy that food doens't rule my life anymore.....now i'm in charge and o boy, that feels damn good.
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botozi
We have a daughter (7 years old) and one day she found some of those packages and she confronted me with it. "Mam, why do you always eat in secret" she asked me and that question made me feel so sad. I always tell here she has to eat properly but behind her back i did the opposite. I was in therapy and i'll spare you the details but i couldn't get control of the food.
Since i started CD i finally get the clue. My body is a holy temple, i only have one and i better take good care of it.
Apart of that, loosing weight makes me look much prettier and i enjoy the compliments which are coming my way so now and then. I'm changing and my HB and daughter see that too and they encourage me so well!
I'm so very happy that food doens't rule my life anymore.....now i'm in charge and o boy, that feels damn good.
Hugs
botozi