Littleslimmingbee
Gold Member
Hi guys.
I just feel like i have to share this, i am so confused.
some of you may know the story, from past posts. This has been a really on going thing.
To cut a long story short. My mum married a horrible, monstor of a guy, whom in the end she wasnt strong enough to kick him out by herself, and yet again i had to do it for her. She asked me to pack up all his things, i had to make all contact with him reguarding the house etc.. and she said she would NEVER let him near her kids again, or near her.
since then she has gone further and further from her word.. firstly seeing him outside the house for days out without the kids knowing, then she started letting him back in the house for 'cups of tea' whilst the kids were at school.. then there was day trips out with the kids, , now he's round there reguarly, and yesterday they threw him a birthday party. last week i went round and there were two mugs in her bedroom and a card adressed her to her 'husband' with a very soppy message to him inside. They are together, there is no doubting that.
he is a horrible ******* and as i have done in the past, iv had to pick up the peices, my youngest brother has had to have councilling because he really messed with then.. Social services and police were involved. she tells the kids to lie to me about seeing john or were she's gone.
she just keeps lieing to me, and she so in deniel she cannot see what she is doing for wrong, i have been dancing around this for months but now she has pushed it too far.. Joe no longer wants her in the house and has canceled our weekend away with her and the kids.
i finally had to build up the corouge to tell her if she continues with this i can no longer have her in my life. It was really tough and broke my heart, but there was part of me that was certain that she has always maintained that her children came first, so surly she would pick me.
well. She hasnt. I am devasted. I cant stop crying and all of a sudden the world seems so lonley. I can't even discribe the dissapointment i feel, the one person who should never let me down has, i dont understand how she can continue doing somthing she knows hurts me so much.
i dont know what to do, its been 2 days and all i want is my mum but i cant keep allowing her to hurt me like this, i cant be there to watch her destroy all the progress shes made with the kids.. i am just so angry.
everytime i confront her, she makes me feel awful, she turns it around on me, because she doesnt want to grow old alone.. she makes me feel like im blowing it all out of proportion, infact somtimes she makes me feel like im imagining it all.
I just cant believe whats shes doing, i cant believe she's throwing our relationship away for HIM. eurgh it makes me sick. physically sick, i cant .. i just cant even stand the thought, everytime it crosses my mind i cant help but cry.
it feels like my heart actually hurts.
do i stand my ground? is life too short? or am i doing the best thing for me? for joe.. for us. and my life.
I just feel like i have to share this, i am so confused.
some of you may know the story, from past posts. This has been a really on going thing.
To cut a long story short. My mum married a horrible, monstor of a guy, whom in the end she wasnt strong enough to kick him out by herself, and yet again i had to do it for her. She asked me to pack up all his things, i had to make all contact with him reguarding the house etc.. and she said she would NEVER let him near her kids again, or near her.
since then she has gone further and further from her word.. firstly seeing him outside the house for days out without the kids knowing, then she started letting him back in the house for 'cups of tea' whilst the kids were at school.. then there was day trips out with the kids, , now he's round there reguarly, and yesterday they threw him a birthday party. last week i went round and there were two mugs in her bedroom and a card adressed her to her 'husband' with a very soppy message to him inside. They are together, there is no doubting that.
he is a horrible ******* and as i have done in the past, iv had to pick up the peices, my youngest brother has had to have councilling because he really messed with then.. Social services and police were involved. she tells the kids to lie to me about seeing john or were she's gone.
she just keeps lieing to me, and she so in deniel she cannot see what she is doing for wrong, i have been dancing around this for months but now she has pushed it too far.. Joe no longer wants her in the house and has canceled our weekend away with her and the kids.
i finally had to build up the corouge to tell her if she continues with this i can no longer have her in my life. It was really tough and broke my heart, but there was part of me that was certain that she has always maintained that her children came first, so surly she would pick me.
well. She hasnt. I am devasted. I cant stop crying and all of a sudden the world seems so lonley. I can't even discribe the dissapointment i feel, the one person who should never let me down has, i dont understand how she can continue doing somthing she knows hurts me so much.
i dont know what to do, its been 2 days and all i want is my mum but i cant keep allowing her to hurt me like this, i cant be there to watch her destroy all the progress shes made with the kids.. i am just so angry.
everytime i confront her, she makes me feel awful, she turns it around on me, because she doesnt want to grow old alone.. she makes me feel like im blowing it all out of proportion, infact somtimes she makes me feel like im imagining it all.
I just cant believe whats shes doing, i cant believe she's throwing our relationship away for HIM. eurgh it makes me sick. physically sick, i cant .. i just cant even stand the thought, everytime it crosses my mind i cant help but cry.
it feels like my heart actually hurts.
do i stand my ground? is life too short? or am i doing the best thing for me? for joe.. for us. and my life.