Hi everyone,
Don't know how many of you are reading out there but like i've said many times, is not about quantity but quality.
Like most i'm not new to dieting, ive done it since i was 14 and i'm almost 24 now. Living with food has being a nightmare ever since, i'm always aware of my weight and like some i have lots of self image issues, some a bit over the top i would have to say.
Thing is, sometimes i feel like a bit of a sap, cos i'm not really overweight, i'm just always up or down a stone, but the thing is is not just about the weight, but the world out there....
I know, most people say "dont care what others think" but i do, a LOT and on top of that i live on a world surrounded by models and sportstars. And even though i have dated sports "stars" myself and they told me they prefer girls like "me" to those "size 0 sticks" most of the time i wish i was one of them, and not the one having to struggle.
At least i show a brave face to the world, but inside my house, secluded in my room, i decided to finally share this with someone, cos it was eating me inside.. i hope someone is out there reading me...
I know what i have to do to lose the stone i need to lose for next month, i know what works for my metabolism and what doesnt.
i bought all the tickets and took all the rides.
i've been on several dieting pills, i've been addicted to the gym, i've fasted(it actually works for me to do the juice diet) i've done weight watchers and i've done the redbull diet.
Sometimes i just dont have the will power to do it, but I NEED TO.
I HAVE TO.
I just hope i'm not alone here....
Don't know how many of you are reading out there but like i've said many times, is not about quantity but quality.
Like most i'm not new to dieting, ive done it since i was 14 and i'm almost 24 now. Living with food has being a nightmare ever since, i'm always aware of my weight and like some i have lots of self image issues, some a bit over the top i would have to say.
Thing is, sometimes i feel like a bit of a sap, cos i'm not really overweight, i'm just always up or down a stone, but the thing is is not just about the weight, but the world out there....
I know, most people say "dont care what others think" but i do, a LOT and on top of that i live on a world surrounded by models and sportstars. And even though i have dated sports "stars" myself and they told me they prefer girls like "me" to those "size 0 sticks" most of the time i wish i was one of them, and not the one having to struggle.
At least i show a brave face to the world, but inside my house, secluded in my room, i decided to finally share this with someone, cos it was eating me inside.. i hope someone is out there reading me...
I know what i have to do to lose the stone i need to lose for next month, i know what works for my metabolism and what doesnt.
i bought all the tickets and took all the rides.
i've been on several dieting pills, i've been addicted to the gym, i've fasted(it actually works for me to do the juice diet) i've done weight watchers and i've done the redbull diet.
Sometimes i just dont have the will power to do it, but I NEED TO.
I HAVE TO.
I just hope i'm not alone here....