Hi
Not been around much recently as I have had a few issues i have needed to deal with,
Seems like I cant do it on my own and have now come on here looking for advice and help.
Ok from the start
I am in week 13 and have lost 51.5 pounds almost 4 stone and I am delighted but I have been having problems with nibbling and this has slowed down my weight loss.
Last night at class I was saying this and how i didnt need help to stop it as it was only me that could do it. It was suggested that if I was seen eating a member of my family would tell me. I had to admit no one sees me as I am a secret eater. I have been doing this since I was little. Asked if there was a reason that I knew of I confessed that I was sexually abused since a very early age by a very close family member. Boy did that put a damper on the class. But it did make things fall into place . As a child eating was my comfort zone. It has been suggested that unless I deal with the abuse I wont be able to deal with my eating. It could be a physcological thing that I dont want to be thin as I dont want to be sexually attractive.
In the past I have spoken to a councellor about it but it has only made it worse rather than better. I havent told a lot of people including my family, The abuser is now dead and I worry they wont believe me telling them after all these years.
Today at work I told one of my collegues and she said yes it made things very clear. I am obsessed about not leaving my kids with anyone and recently took time of work to look after them. She now understood why I did that. There was more to it but going into enough details here.
I know this is hard but as anyone been in a similar situation and delt with it. If so how. I dont want this to ruin the rest of my life. I have had a couple of days binging in the last week as i am having a problem coping with it now i have got it into my head again.
Thanks
Not been around much recently as I have had a few issues i have needed to deal with,
Seems like I cant do it on my own and have now come on here looking for advice and help.
Ok from the start
I am in week 13 and have lost 51.5 pounds almost 4 stone and I am delighted but I have been having problems with nibbling and this has slowed down my weight loss.
Last night at class I was saying this and how i didnt need help to stop it as it was only me that could do it. It was suggested that if I was seen eating a member of my family would tell me. I had to admit no one sees me as I am a secret eater. I have been doing this since I was little. Asked if there was a reason that I knew of I confessed that I was sexually abused since a very early age by a very close family member. Boy did that put a damper on the class. But it did make things fall into place . As a child eating was my comfort zone. It has been suggested that unless I deal with the abuse I wont be able to deal with my eating. It could be a physcological thing that I dont want to be thin as I dont want to be sexually attractive.
In the past I have spoken to a councellor about it but it has only made it worse rather than better. I havent told a lot of people including my family, The abuser is now dead and I worry they wont believe me telling them after all these years.
Today at work I told one of my collegues and she said yes it made things very clear. I am obsessed about not leaving my kids with anyone and recently took time of work to look after them. She now understood why I did that. There was more to it but going into enough details here.
I know this is hard but as anyone been in a similar situation and delt with it. If so how. I dont want this to ruin the rest of my life. I have had a couple of days binging in the last week as i am having a problem coping with it now i have got it into my head again.
Thanks