evilpenguin
Not evil at all
Hi guys,
A few of you may remember my post from Monday about me feeling generally fed up with the plan + not losing, then cheating it because I'm fed up and all sorts of negative stuff like that.
Well, that night I went home and had around 20 syns worth of giant jaffa cake and felt miserable/angry for it.. Then on Tuesday I started again with a green day and managed to stick to around 12 syns for the day, so on Wednesday morning I had this funny thought in my head "well sticking to plan didn't kill me - it's not that hard", and again I had a good day sticking to plan with around maybe 12 syns again so I was pleased I was managing to not eat.. although I had a few moments of "omg I need to eat" when really I wasn't hungry so I just munched my way through grapes, yoghurts, free foods like that.
Then I went to WI, after a bowl of noodles which I think may have affected it! And anyway I stayed the same. I sort of seen it as a 2nd chance to have a really good week and get back into it.. until I got home and was absolutely starving. I was craving Dominos - or maybe I was just craving anything synful, I didn't want more fruit, I didn't want anything free really, I just really wanted a pizza. I was halfway to ordering one online when my bf stepped in and basically explained that it wasn't worth it. I was arguing with him - like a little kid not getting her own way really. I was almost in tears, I wanted the pizza! He reminded me of all the times I'd told him to stick to plan when he was craving chippies/chinese takeaways. "Yes but this is different" I told him, but he never listened. I got angry and left the room.. still absolutely starving too.. so I made Marshall's macaroni cheese (the free one) and ate two bowls of it. I was still angry and still wanted the pizza - but I left it and got on with my night.
Anyway guys/girls.. sorry for the really long post! I just wanted to say that this morning I woke up to realise not having the pizza didn't kill me like I somehow thought it might have last night. Maybe my bf was right after all! It's not worth it! I can't believe I actually wanted to cry over pizza. This is so hard sometimes but really it's actually so so so easy! Why it takes something so stupid like that to make me realise it, I have no idea.
xxxx
A few of you may remember my post from Monday about me feeling generally fed up with the plan + not losing, then cheating it because I'm fed up and all sorts of negative stuff like that.
Well, that night I went home and had around 20 syns worth of giant jaffa cake and felt miserable/angry for it.. Then on Tuesday I started again with a green day and managed to stick to around 12 syns for the day, so on Wednesday morning I had this funny thought in my head "well sticking to plan didn't kill me - it's not that hard", and again I had a good day sticking to plan with around maybe 12 syns again so I was pleased I was managing to not eat.. although I had a few moments of "omg I need to eat" when really I wasn't hungry so I just munched my way through grapes, yoghurts, free foods like that.
Then I went to WI, after a bowl of noodles which I think may have affected it! And anyway I stayed the same. I sort of seen it as a 2nd chance to have a really good week and get back into it.. until I got home and was absolutely starving. I was craving Dominos - or maybe I was just craving anything synful, I didn't want more fruit, I didn't want anything free really, I just really wanted a pizza. I was halfway to ordering one online when my bf stepped in and basically explained that it wasn't worth it. I was arguing with him - like a little kid not getting her own way really. I was almost in tears, I wanted the pizza! He reminded me of all the times I'd told him to stick to plan when he was craving chippies/chinese takeaways. "Yes but this is different" I told him, but he never listened. I got angry and left the room.. still absolutely starving too.. so I made Marshall's macaroni cheese (the free one) and ate two bowls of it. I was still angry and still wanted the pizza - but I left it and got on with my night.
Anyway guys/girls.. sorry for the really long post! I just wanted to say that this morning I woke up to realise not having the pizza didn't kill me like I somehow thought it might have last night. Maybe my bf was right after all! It's not worth it! I can't believe I actually wanted to cry over pizza. This is so hard sometimes but really it's actually so so so easy! Why it takes something so stupid like that to make me realise it, I have no idea.
xxxx