Hello, Well I have been a very, very bad girl for many,many weeks !! Consequently the skinny woman inside is STILL stuck inside and the fat woman on the outside is 12 whole pounds bigger than she was!
I am so cross with myself- I am morbidly obese again! Never thought I'd see the scales starting with a number 2 again either- but this is what happens if you stuff as much food down your neck as possible.
This is the first time that I have actually admitted to myself that I have an eating disorder. People who don't have eating disorders just don't buy pork pies and packets of 4 chocolate eclairs and eat them all. Ever!
So nearly a stone back on.I'm half way through day 2 and going to be ruthless with myself.
I have had a very hard few weeks with horrendous and tragic stuff to deal with at work, and life threatening illness in the family. But even so- I don't think to ram food ( that you don't even like) down your gob is the usual response. So I'm going to stop.
And I think I might get some hypnotherapy/hypnoanalysis to help me on this journey.
I won't be able to visit Mims much due to life pressures but will cherish the support that I know you will give and will strive to give support back whenever I can.
Sorry for the long self indulgent post ! Off now to read a few posts and catch up!!
MA
xxx
I am so cross with myself- I am morbidly obese again! Never thought I'd see the scales starting with a number 2 again either- but this is what happens if you stuff as much food down your neck as possible.
This is the first time that I have actually admitted to myself that I have an eating disorder. People who don't have eating disorders just don't buy pork pies and packets of 4 chocolate eclairs and eat them all. Ever!
So nearly a stone back on.I'm half way through day 2 and going to be ruthless with myself.
I have had a very hard few weeks with horrendous and tragic stuff to deal with at work, and life threatening illness in the family. But even so- I don't think to ram food ( that you don't even like) down your gob is the usual response. So I'm going to stop.
And I think I might get some hypnotherapy/hypnoanalysis to help me on this journey.
I won't be able to visit Mims much due to life pressures but will cherish the support that I know you will give and will strive to give support back whenever I can.
Sorry for the long self indulgent post ! Off now to read a few posts and catch up!!
MA
xxx