Aaleigha
soon to be mother of the bride
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so I will stay on plan until a week before and then do the 7 day refeed that Slim and Save advise
last night I again looked at my strengths and weaknesses - I am preparing this for counselling today - I did agree with my counsellor to do a list of what my strengths were
now when I started this I found I was also doing weaknesses and that some things that might appear as a strength at say a job interview are in fact for me a weakness as well
two that spring to mind are punctuality and list making
I keep military time - I have never been late I would rather leave the house half hour early and sit in the car or catch a train one hour early and go for a coffee than be late
lateness really makes me twitchy - think how much time I waste every day of my life
list making
my list making is a bit ocd I have permanent lists for going away for the weekend - camping - basic shopping - you name it I might have a list for it - medicine chest - doggies medicine chest etc
well I have just been down the garden with those ocd lists and burnt them - now I feel panicked - BUT last year I collapsed with bilateral pulmonary emboli and was collapsed on the road outside my house - with my quick thinking friend I might not be here now - did my world fall apart when I went to hospital with NO packed bag - did anyone at home use my list to bring me things - of course not and a revelation to me my world did not fall apart
with my permanent lists I used to rewrite them for ticking off and packing and I used to do that at least three times taking stuff out just in case - I know that borders on the neurotic hardly a strength in every day life
why I have I put this there so it is public - partly for cleansing and partly to remind myself that I need to find something else to fill my time and it will NOT be eating
so plan for today is
I will try today the vanilla crispy not quite sure how to make that up - perhaps it is the same as a shake - will search for that
then I will a bar
dinner (meal) will be my veggie allowance of cauliflower and mushroom and have the macaroni pack with that
then a final shake for the evening - I have vegetarian agar agar and might use it to make a dessert with - will check with the lovely people at s and s
will also report back here for the answer as to if I can use it

so I will stay on plan until a week before and then do the 7 day refeed that Slim and Save advise
last night I again looked at my strengths and weaknesses - I am preparing this for counselling today - I did agree with my counsellor to do a list of what my strengths were
now when I started this I found I was also doing weaknesses and that some things that might appear as a strength at say a job interview are in fact for me a weakness as well
two that spring to mind are punctuality and list making
I keep military time - I have never been late I would rather leave the house half hour early and sit in the car or catch a train one hour early and go for a coffee than be late
lateness really makes me twitchy - think how much time I waste every day of my life
list making
my list making is a bit ocd I have permanent lists for going away for the weekend - camping - basic shopping - you name it I might have a list for it - medicine chest - doggies medicine chest etc
well I have just been down the garden with those ocd lists and burnt them - now I feel panicked - BUT last year I collapsed with bilateral pulmonary emboli and was collapsed on the road outside my house - with my quick thinking friend I might not be here now - did my world fall apart when I went to hospital with NO packed bag - did anyone at home use my list to bring me things - of course not and a revelation to me my world did not fall apart
with my permanent lists I used to rewrite them for ticking off and packing and I used to do that at least three times taking stuff out just in case - I know that borders on the neurotic hardly a strength in every day life
why I have I put this there so it is public - partly for cleansing and partly to remind myself that I need to find something else to fill my time and it will NOT be eating
so plan for today is
I will try today the vanilla crispy not quite sure how to make that up - perhaps it is the same as a shake - will search for that
then I will a bar
dinner (meal) will be my veggie allowance of cauliflower and mushroom and have the macaroni pack with that
then a final shake for the evening - I have vegetarian agar agar and might use it to make a dessert with - will check with the lovely people at s and s
will also report back here for the answer as to if I can use it