Heya guys, I have had a total check over of my heart and have had it monitored and the doctor said that it seemed fine, she then said that the palpatations could be caused through stress and anxiety, which which i suffer a lot from. I also told her that once while at school doing a speech in front of my class i almost fainted, i couldnt hear anything or see clearly and almost fell to the floor. I was experiencing a severe anxiety attack through all the stress of speaking aloud infront of my class. I also have the stress at home of being a young carer for my sick father. I havnt had a heart palp in a very long time and i think that that is because i havnt been at school because of the six weeks holidays. I do believe that I get heart palps because of my anxiety and my anxiety because of the huge lack in confidence i have when with my peers.
I am very mature for my age you can ask anyone that, however i do feel that just because im not super skinny doesnt mean i dont have an eating disorder, i feel that currently i have an eating disorder because it is not normal to be the weight that i am and if i dont lose this weight it will have a serious affect on me later on in life. I suffer a lot with depression because of family problems. I dont drink, smoke or take drugs the only comfort for me is food. i dont even socialise with people because i dont have the confidence to go out and make friends, this also make me feel isolated and depressed.
i have tried many diets, i went on the Slimfast diet with Lissy25 and i stayed at her house for a few days so we could help each other avoid any urges for sweets and snacks but as soon as i came home i didnt have that support and went back to my same old ways. i also just tried eating healthy and exercising regularly but it was very hard for me beause i have no support at all as it is only myself and my dad at home. I am reluctant to go on any faddy diets as i know they can harm your body and are not a healthy option to pick. I look after myself well, and understand the advantages and disadvantages of going on LT. I do feel though that LT will be good for me because it will completly reeducate my body and brain about eating and help stop my bad eating habits. I have also read that you lose the weight very quickly, which I think will be good for me because it will give me that great confidence boost i need. This hopefully will then stop me from feeling depressed so much which in return will not only make me psychologically healthy but physically healthy.
Shannon xxx
P.S i really appreciate all of the comments