BlackRose
Gold Member
I haven't started the diet yet so look away if this p**ses you off!!!
I have done LT before so I know how hard it is. Truly -considering I have yet to get more than a stone off me trust me -I kow its hard. Now I'm planning to start again on the 8th Sept because me and OH are going to Paris on wednesday (YAY!!) and so..well... you know! I feel so excited this time at the thopughts of it and for some reason I have absolutely no doubt that I'll do it this time. This makes me worry in case I'm being too naive -or that its like childbirth...you forget the horror and do it again. So then I think -well then maybe, like childbirth, it's so hard but it is so worth the effort.
Happiness and health are my main motivators. But...I'm ashamed to say that spite is also playing a big role in my determination to lose this bloody fat. I have friends who have told me for years when I've cried about my weight, who have sabotaged my diets kindly and unkindly and have weakly told me that I should feel beautiful no matter what my size. These same friends are now finding issue with their own bodies and expecting me to provide comfort and support while they at perfectly normal and healthy weights complain that they are 'fat' and 'cellulitey' and 'old looking' at 4 and 6 stone lighter than me -but I'm 'beautiful'!!!! So my question is -to my 'friends' has it been ok for me to be fat and unhappy because they didn't see how these things affected them? Now I'm remembering all the times I pleaded for help and understanding while I embarked on another diet. The times they repeatedly let me down when we'd agreed to go walking or start an exercise class. The times they couldn't accept that I didn't want to drink on nights out because I was trying to lose weight.
So now I'm thinking, as I was before these lovely lady friends of mine started complaining, good old lipotirm and I'm not telling ANYONE I know (OH and minimins excluded of course ) because I'm not willing to put up with the sh*t and pressure from ppl who just dont seem to want you to get happy!
Yes I accpet my part in this -I could have and should have stood my ground but come on!! We all know what its like -especially when we are particularly hungry and weak and the advice to 'just a eat a little' is 'well meant'.
So now -my plan is to lose ALL my excess weight -get me some skinny and foxy clothes and acquaint myself with the feeling of being the skinny and sexy one on a night out with my FRIENDS!!!
I apologise 4 the rant. I prob should have blogged this.
GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY!!
I have done LT before so I know how hard it is. Truly -considering I have yet to get more than a stone off me trust me -I kow its hard. Now I'm planning to start again on the 8th Sept because me and OH are going to Paris on wednesday (YAY!!) and so..well... you know! I feel so excited this time at the thopughts of it and for some reason I have absolutely no doubt that I'll do it this time. This makes me worry in case I'm being too naive -or that its like childbirth...you forget the horror and do it again. So then I think -well then maybe, like childbirth, it's so hard but it is so worth the effort.
Happiness and health are my main motivators. But...I'm ashamed to say that spite is also playing a big role in my determination to lose this bloody fat. I have friends who have told me for years when I've cried about my weight, who have sabotaged my diets kindly and unkindly and have weakly told me that I should feel beautiful no matter what my size. These same friends are now finding issue with their own bodies and expecting me to provide comfort and support while they at perfectly normal and healthy weights complain that they are 'fat' and 'cellulitey' and 'old looking' at 4 and 6 stone lighter than me -but I'm 'beautiful'!!!! So my question is -to my 'friends' has it been ok for me to be fat and unhappy because they didn't see how these things affected them? Now I'm remembering all the times I pleaded for help and understanding while I embarked on another diet. The times they repeatedly let me down when we'd agreed to go walking or start an exercise class. The times they couldn't accept that I didn't want to drink on nights out because I was trying to lose weight.
So now I'm thinking, as I was before these lovely lady friends of mine started complaining, good old lipotirm and I'm not telling ANYONE I know (OH and minimins excluded of course ) because I'm not willing to put up with the sh*t and pressure from ppl who just dont seem to want you to get happy!
Yes I accpet my part in this -I could have and should have stood my ground but come on!! We all know what its like -especially when we are particularly hungry and weak and the advice to 'just a eat a little' is 'well meant'.
So now -my plan is to lose ALL my excess weight -get me some skinny and foxy clothes and acquaint myself with the feeling of being the skinny and sexy one on a night out with my FRIENDS!!!
I apologise 4 the rant. I prob should have blogged this.
GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY!!