River's LL Diary

My word .. 8 stone down well done that woman. Rocking it kiddo fair play xx
 
Hehe thank you huni :). Cant believe i got here, it seems like only yesterday i was looking at other people on here like Hannah and SlendaBrenda envying their success and hoping i could get through week 1 lol xx
 
Thanks gracielou huni :) Your nearly there yourself! Go you ;D x
 
Another lovely pic Lucy. xx:)
 
Ah huni, Thank you so much it means alot my sharing of my experience can help others too, so im so glad its helping you to keep going!

Ive been in your place before and 2lb is an amazing loss and believe me i have cried from my "just loosing 2lbs" negativity but it is an amazing loss and your doing so well.

I think i got to the point when i came out of hospital that it finally sunk in that any loss was great and better than loosing nothing at all (i actually cant believe i didnt freak out over the 1/2 a pound last week lol).

So please dont get down over it huni, as your only 2lb is a great 2lb :D.

Hi Lucy
thank you for your encouragement.I have given myself a good talking too and I am focused yes a loss is a loss and I am sticking at in for the long haul.
Cathy
 
Thank you SB, i seem to be making a bad habbit of taking pictures now lol.

Whaaat your 41 gracielou?! You do not look 41 in your picture! I thought you were late 20s/early 30s! Nooo you shouldnt think that at all huni! Its your new journey now and you can always gain a little if your not comfortable, its what i was going to do originally but im not that confident with myself to test those waters at this point if im honest.

Cathy you go girl! Your doing an amazing job xx
 
Being naughty and double posting but i totally chickened out this morning i got my running gear on at 6.30am talked myself up and so did my OH and got to the end of my drive and i panicked like anything!! I feel so sh*tty! but i just feel like a damn fool.. i said to my LLC on tuesday i have a fat brain in a thin persons body.. im just so embarressed about exercising in public :(. Ive asked the OH to join me in the gym as its the only way ill go at this point and 30 mins on my bike and weights just aint cutting it anymore so well see as hes away quite alot lately (like tonight *sniff*).

Grr its soo fustrating.. im going to try again tomorrow but maybe i should invest in a treadmill at this point :(. So i treated myself with Lush facemask and goodies in a bath as i felt crappy for letting myself down.

Other than my running failure lol, i feel mentally back on track with LL and me now and i can finally concerntrate on those 6lbs and RTM (the RTM book is like my bible! So interesting i cant put it down).

Night night everyone :) x
 
Hi Lucy,
Don't feel embarrassed about opting out of the exercise yesterday morning. I can relate to that. I did it too a couple of years ago.
Just because you've become a thin person doesn't mean you automaticallly have to register to run in the Marathon, or would be able to do it.
Having laughingly told people I was allergic to exercise for over 20 years I was scared to death of joining a gym or starting to jog or even getting on a bike. All that stuff about lycra, what to wear, everyone checking each other out, being out of breath, huffing and puffing, going red, what trainers to get (they were called plimsolls last time I had any, my Mum had bought my last pair!).
I actually decided to talk to my GP about it because I do acknowledge that moderate exercise is healthy for a body and extreme exercise is healthy for some bodies.
He referred me to a "medical gym" which people go to after heart attacks, strokes or other health situations. I met a young girl who had an arm amputated and didn't want to go back to her old gym. The staff are trained to help people on a one to one basis, they are non-judgemental, you can do it at your own pace and build up gradually. Maybe there's something like that near you?
 
Thank you SB, i seem to be making a bad habbit of taking pictures now lol.

Whaaat your 41 gracielou?! You do not look 41 in your picture! I thought you were late 20s/early 30s! Nooo you shouldnt think that at all huni! Its your new journey now and you can always gain a little if your not comfortable, its what i was going to do originally but im not that confident with myself to test those waters at this point if im honest.

Cathy you go girl! Your doing an amazing job xx

Ah bless you huni ...good lighting lol xxx

Love the quote of a fat brain in a slim body. One of the ladies in our group is a returner to LL and had previously lost 6 stone. Once she got to goal she ate like a banshee to put the weight back on as she couldnt relate to a slim person. She's got 3 stone to lose now and more focused on changing her thoughts than losing the weight. She didnt do RTM either but is determined to do this as well. Our brain has a lot to answer for lol.

Think of the positive ....You got out of bed and put your running clobber on and got out of the house ...little steps hun, little steps. Maybe next time run to the end of the street.

I have a fear of swimming/water/depth and my LLc has challenged me to take swimming lessons. It took me a couple weeks to actually ring, but I have a 1 to 1 lesson tonight. Crapping my pants is not putting it too mildly I have to tell you.

You will do it hun in your own good time in your own way, but try and think of the positives and not the negatives.

xxx
 
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Thank you girlies for your support :). Im currently watching treadmills on ebay as i dont want to get an expensive one and then chicken out again :( lol but yeh i can relate to what you said SB i have always been allergic to exercise lol! It started in school i have hated it to death infact it got so bad exercising infront of others i used to pretend to be ill on P.E days not to go in and eventually my mother twigged and i had to go but once i got into it id be fine and its the same with the gym when i used to go with my Oh or friends id be intially nervous but id get into it slightly but i battle it every time i have to go and its hard to do it now as i live 4 hours away from friends and i dont know anyone here where we live now :( not to mention the OH has a busy job.

Im going to ask like you said SB about the medical gym, ive done one before but it sort of ended after 3 months and then you had to join mainstream gym. My OH wants to try swimming with me when he gets time to but i cant swim for toffee lol but go you Gracielou!! Good luck huni i hope it went well for you :) and pft goodlighting my thumb missy!

Also the sun is out!! So im going to go get my tan in the sun with a glass of sunshine water lol xx
 
Great post hun, hope you grab a bargain on eBay!

My daughter followed me for the total dislike of exercise in the traditional sense. I remember cleaning her room once and found a letter written to the pe teacher stating she had fallen from her horse and therefore unable to take part, oh and there was another time that letter said Dani will not be doing her detention due to her having to meet the vet at the stables!!!! All signed by me apparently lol now we both ride so at least it's a type of exercise!! Xx

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I think i got some colour lol not much though as my cat decided to come sit on me as shes an indoor cat she was nervous outside bless her.

Yes i lost one lol but im trying now even if i have to drive to Swindon im getting this swine lol! Haha LadyT shes clever.. my little sister does things like that we recently found out shes being writing notes and coming home early as shes a quiet kid and doesnt socialise very well.

Horse riding ive considered too! I was only looking at classes yesterday as i love my OH's mothers horses but ive been to heavy to ride before lol.. I will think of you all in work as i venture out to my patio again lol xx
 
Im slightly confused as what i should feel right now.. its been brewing the last week or two and i lay in bed last night and couldnt really sleep over this.

My RTM process is really close now maybe two or three weeks (if im lucky) and i dont know what i should feel? Should i be excited about eating again and finishing? Ive been thinking just occasional thoughts of new healthy tasty things i can cook and planning my meals but Im afraid doing this and getting excited about eating real food (I read the RTM book and just felt excited at the thought if eating dates and and fruit and veg :() means im going to fail keeping the weight off or its going to ruin RTM.

This is just really bugging me now, i keep thinking im failing before ive started.
 
I'm on my phone so can't see your losses!

Question: Did you gain all the weight you've lost eating fruit and vegetables?

I doubt it!! I know mine was mostly bread & cheese!!

Of course you are excited to have real food soon after just packs. And nervous too. I remember feeling like one meal would make the whole lot go back on again!!

Leaving the safety of packs & ketosis can be scary too. We know where we are with packs, real food is another thing.

RTM introduces food groups gradually, and is designed to teach you how much you can eat to maintain your new weight. For me it was the biggest part of the program and I had to repeat some trigger weeks.

Planning ahead is crucial - deciding which packs to replace and with what. Getting the shopping and cooking right means the meals are right.

And really doing RTM too!! Why do I say this?? I am friends with a girl from my group last year. She recently confessed that she did not do RTM properly!! She stuck mostly to chicken or tuna salad and some fruit. She was so scared of gaining weight.

In the year since she has regained over 3 stone of her 5 stone loss. She believes this us because she didn't do RTM properly and relearn about food in the safety of group.

So I recommend you take time to learn and make it work for YOU.

Look forward to hearing how you get on? xx
 
Thank you huni, thats really helped me have a little think :). I dont have losses on here i just loose about 2-3 and im currently on total to shift the last 6lb.

The majority of mine was moving out young and not knowing how to cook so takeaways every night not my date craving lol :p.

I have learnt alot since then though, i went to my dietician for the gastric band as i wanted to change and in a way that helped me plan and calorie check.

LL was the biggest change for me though as its changed my mental thinking and made me more aware of my habbits (im a picker when i cook so ive curbed it or trying to). I was petrified to eat in hospital like you said i didnt want to ruin it and gain everything back but i had to eat and it did help me in a way but i did hate myself for eating digestive buscuits lol i guess thats a good thing..

I just i guess feel wrong that i should be excited about new flavours and textures (doesnt help that i love to cook and invent) and i shouldnt be thinking about it cause its wrong and if i get too excited this could lead to my failure and this diet is my life but i have to leave the pack saftey net at some point and its not like im wanting a kebab or block of cheese!!

Arrggh too many feelings to shake a stick at!!
 
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Feeling slightly more comfortable today about the whole RTM thing. This just means alot to me and im making mountains out of mole hills (again?!) lol which isnt good so im relaxing and i have got 6lbs to go and well leave the panicking till i actually start!

My head seems to be swimming lately, so im really sorry and i do feel terrible if i dont write in any of your diarys, i do think of you all and i try to pop in time to time to see how your doing :).

Im trying to get busy myself with something as when im bored i tend to over think and evaluate things so i am trying to writing on here again too, i even started knitting lol but im just missing something and i think its because im sat at home all day. I also feel totally drained (im not sure if anyone else did when they got to this stage?) especially through this last stretch to 10 stone.. i can just about do my house cleaning before flopping down and i live on coffee, so much i was getting palpitations so ive cut down.

Im not feeling depressed anymore which is a positive! but anything can change in a day with me at the moment lol also i think that was partly down to sitting doing nothing all day and this drained feeling.

I got offered a bsc in animal behaviour and a psychology course from my local college but we do want to move back to Wales so im reluctant to take it and to top it off there are no jobs here.
 
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