I've been successful in moving from SS to 810 with one blip but I moved on.
However, last night day 77 I had a moment of madness. I can't figure out if it was loss of control or was I simply self sabotaging myself because I was so close to breaking the 9st barrier?
I can only describe last night's binge on almonds, peanuts, cheese and crackers and a tiny piece of chocolate cake as a "food bender". Whilst I know I shouldn't compare it to someone with a drug of alcohol addiction for me it is the only comparision I can draw for me to accept I need to sort my head issues out. I have a long way to go in that regard perhaps the rest of my life.
I didn't enjoy the food, I didn't enjoy feeling more and more stuffed as I shoved (and I mean shoved cheese and crackers, nuts into my mouth). As a consequence, my stomach feel bloated and tender this morning.
So I am re-starting my re-start today which would have been day 78 on CD. I guess I'll keep counting the days anyway.
I am sharing this because I hope this will help anyone out there who suddenly find themselves teetering on a precipe.
I am not going to feel sorry for myself, I am not looking for sympathy. I allowed myself to lose control and will I take responsibility for my actions and I will start again today.
However, last night day 77 I had a moment of madness. I can't figure out if it was loss of control or was I simply self sabotaging myself because I was so close to breaking the 9st barrier?
I can only describe last night's binge on almonds, peanuts, cheese and crackers and a tiny piece of chocolate cake as a "food bender". Whilst I know I shouldn't compare it to someone with a drug of alcohol addiction for me it is the only comparision I can draw for me to accept I need to sort my head issues out. I have a long way to go in that regard perhaps the rest of my life.
I didn't enjoy the food, I didn't enjoy feeling more and more stuffed as I shoved (and I mean shoved cheese and crackers, nuts into my mouth). As a consequence, my stomach feel bloated and tender this morning.
So I am re-starting my re-start today which would have been day 78 on CD. I guess I'll keep counting the days anyway.
I am sharing this because I hope this will help anyone out there who suddenly find themselves teetering on a precipe.
I am not going to feel sorry for myself, I am not looking for sympathy. I allowed myself to lose control and will I take responsibility for my actions and I will start again today.