daisydoll
Gold Member
Ok, i remember reading someone when i first started on here who had reached target or got near and then started sabotaging .... and thinking why would anyone do that
however, having reached target now i seem to be going down the same route.
i probably haven't done any damage yet as i know that i have to eat an excess of 3500 cals to put on 1lb, but if i carry on like this i will.
i can't explain why i'm eating 'crap'
i'm still sticking to the RTM plan - had no bread, rice, pasta, cereal
but i keep eating cereal bar type things and cake (has been a few people's birthdays)
before LL i wasn't a cake person at all but it like i'm testing myself.
why would i do this when i am so pleased with getting to goal?
I lost another pound this week, which i 'shouldn't' have done as i am now feeling invincible- which i know in my head i'm not ....and i'm terrified of putting it back on
so why am i messing about like this?
i am conciously doing my 10,000 steps a day at the moment, so i guess that is helping a bit
i do want to be able to eat 'cake' like 'normal thin' people do
- its almost like i am trying to act like a thin person by eating what i want in order to prove to myself i am an imposter - expecting/knowing i will fail cos i am supposed to be fat?
someone give me a kick up the backside please before i mess this up.....
daisy x
however, having reached target now i seem to be going down the same route.
i probably haven't done any damage yet as i know that i have to eat an excess of 3500 cals to put on 1lb, but if i carry on like this i will.
i can't explain why i'm eating 'crap'
i'm still sticking to the RTM plan - had no bread, rice, pasta, cereal
but i keep eating cereal bar type things and cake (has been a few people's birthdays)
before LL i wasn't a cake person at all but it like i'm testing myself.
why would i do this when i am so pleased with getting to goal?
I lost another pound this week, which i 'shouldn't' have done as i am now feeling invincible- which i know in my head i'm not ....and i'm terrified of putting it back on
so why am i messing about like this?
i am conciously doing my 10,000 steps a day at the moment, so i guess that is helping a bit
i do want to be able to eat 'cake' like 'normal thin' people do
- its almost like i am trying to act like a thin person by eating what i want in order to prove to myself i am an imposter - expecting/knowing i will fail cos i am supposed to be fat?
someone give me a kick up the backside please before i mess this up.....
daisy x