Star* cheer up hun, I know how u feel I spent the whole of last easter in on on my own because I was I felt to fat to go out but i swore it would be the last one , I dont like full length mirrors either but I bet you see your self worse than what you are ...we are roughly same weight and also have same final goal,... be positive hun fresh start and all that stop punishing yourself ( ark at me ) .... I am actually feeling for the first time in my life that I can and will lose weight, I see you are doing weight watchers ... do they have the no point plan or corn plan ? Just been searching for the books for you think its discover .. try and fill up on veg,meat,pasta,salads, and then treat your self at the end of the day, I just had my guilt free kit kat although I was looking for stuff so ate quick damo I didnt savor the taste. I am learning to cook healthly from scratch and making my own dips etc .. are you doing that ? I am also not thinking diet , I am think life style change .. it can be done there are so many people on here who have done it, who are doing it , ... sending hugs ps I see u have lost weight so well done and loads of luck xxx