I have been invited to a friends wedding in December and I am really scared. I haven't seen my friends or family in two years and since then I have put on 35kg as a result of failing to cope with the emotional trauma of a pretty horrible thing that happened to me.
The wedding is in ten weeks and the more I think about it the more I panic. My parents have paid thousands for the international airfair so I can't back out. I just can't bear to let people see me like this. I feel like such a complete failure.
I have already lost 3kg from going to the gym a lot over the past month. But these past two weeks, as the wedding gets closer and I start to worry more i've been emotional eating on a rediculous and disturbing level.
But tomorrow I am going to start afresh. I am going to go back to the gym and continue with the running training I have been doing and I am going to try and curb the emotional eating, make my portion sizes sensible and eat delish healthy food.
I am currently 93kg. I want to be 80kg for the wedding. I understand this may be unrealistic, but I can try. That will still be an awful lot more than when they last saw me.
I feel so down. I should be so excited about seeing all of my friends again but I just feel like running to hide.
So here goes...
The wedding is in ten weeks and the more I think about it the more I panic. My parents have paid thousands for the international airfair so I can't back out. I just can't bear to let people see me like this. I feel like such a complete failure.
I have already lost 3kg from going to the gym a lot over the past month. But these past two weeks, as the wedding gets closer and I start to worry more i've been emotional eating on a rediculous and disturbing level.
But tomorrow I am going to start afresh. I am going to go back to the gym and continue with the running training I have been doing and I am going to try and curb the emotional eating, make my portion sizes sensible and eat delish healthy food.
I am currently 93kg. I want to be 80kg for the wedding. I understand this may be unrealistic, but I can try. That will still be an awful lot more than when they last saw me.
I feel so down. I should be so excited about seeing all of my friends again but I just feel like running to hide.
So here goes...