Spanglyrainbow
Full Member
Here it is - this is going to be my diary to keep me on track.
I have always been over weight and made to feel like sh*t because of it. My self esteem has been up and down and I have always put on a front. I've always been popular because I'm always 'happy'...on the outside. I have so many friends who love me and tell me how beautiful I am...yet it's always the nasty comments from other people which stick in my mind.
Over the years I have done diet after diet...losing only to regain. In the past I have been told that no man would like me until I lost the weight - Apparently I am everything a man could want...just in a fat body. I soon figured out that losing weight, just to be accepted by others wasn't going to work. I needed to walk away from the negative people in my life and move on.
I packed my bags and moved to Canada for a year - on my own. My confidence soared and my self esteem followed... I made so many new friends and surrounded myself with people who genuinely loved me for who I was - they didn't care about a number on the scales or the one on the label in my clothes...all they cared about was ME.
I have been back in the UK for a year now and by healthy eating/exercising - I lost 3 stone and 2lbs. On August 10th - I had my false start on the Cambridge Diet.
By 'false start' I mean - since day one, I haven't followed this diet properly. Yes, every week I have gone to my CDC to be weighed, I have bought my packs, I have lost some weight...but also every week I have picked at food, and I haven't lost nearly as much weight as I would have if I had followed the diet 100%.
After my weight last week (Oct 6th) I *thought* I was ready to give it my all...but I wasn't. I was working nights and picked at food still...although not nearly as much as I had been. Then on Tuesday night I collapsed at work...I had the heaviest period I have ever had and the intense pain knocked me out. That was an excuse to eat something...or so I thought at the time. Since then I have been good...I am still in agony with my period, but I have only had my packs and my water.
Today was weigh day and even though I am still on my period - I lost 6lbs. It's now officially the REAL START of me doing CD. No more messing around, no more picking, no more excuses.
I have so much to aim for, but the 2 biggest things happening in the near future....
* 4 weeks today - my boyfriend is coming over for a visit from Canada.
* 11 weeks today - I am moving back to Canada for good.
I know I can do this - for myself.
I'll keep this updated - it will help me stay on track!!
Good luck to everyone else taking a similar journey!!
Much Love ♥ :gen126:
I have always been over weight and made to feel like sh*t because of it. My self esteem has been up and down and I have always put on a front. I've always been popular because I'm always 'happy'...on the outside. I have so many friends who love me and tell me how beautiful I am...yet it's always the nasty comments from other people which stick in my mind.
Over the years I have done diet after diet...losing only to regain. In the past I have been told that no man would like me until I lost the weight - Apparently I am everything a man could want...just in a fat body. I soon figured out that losing weight, just to be accepted by others wasn't going to work. I needed to walk away from the negative people in my life and move on.
I packed my bags and moved to Canada for a year - on my own. My confidence soared and my self esteem followed... I made so many new friends and surrounded myself with people who genuinely loved me for who I was - they didn't care about a number on the scales or the one on the label in my clothes...all they cared about was ME.
I have been back in the UK for a year now and by healthy eating/exercising - I lost 3 stone and 2lbs. On August 10th - I had my false start on the Cambridge Diet.
By 'false start' I mean - since day one, I haven't followed this diet properly. Yes, every week I have gone to my CDC to be weighed, I have bought my packs, I have lost some weight...but also every week I have picked at food, and I haven't lost nearly as much weight as I would have if I had followed the diet 100%.
After my weight last week (Oct 6th) I *thought* I was ready to give it my all...but I wasn't. I was working nights and picked at food still...although not nearly as much as I had been. Then on Tuesday night I collapsed at work...I had the heaviest period I have ever had and the intense pain knocked me out. That was an excuse to eat something...or so I thought at the time. Since then I have been good...I am still in agony with my period, but I have only had my packs and my water.
Today was weigh day and even though I am still on my period - I lost 6lbs. It's now officially the REAL START of me doing CD. No more messing around, no more picking, no more excuses.
I have so much to aim for, but the 2 biggest things happening in the near future....
* 4 weeks today - my boyfriend is coming over for a visit from Canada.
* 11 weeks today - I am moving back to Canada for good.
I know I can do this - for myself.
I'll keep this updated - it will help me stay on track!!
Good luck to everyone else taking a similar journey!!
Much Love ♥ :gen126: