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[l20laura]

Hi Not sure what to do so I'm just gonna do what I think lol

I started the cambridge diet ss last wednesday the 10th and weighed 12 st 11 lb cannot believe I weighed that much!!!! All I could think about for the first few days was food!!! Any type of food, burgers, chips, toast, bananas! I was obsessed, didn't eat anything though I was a good girl. Just stuck to my soup for lunch shake about 5 6ish and then porridge about 10 or 11 to set me up for the night.
Then a couple days later found (excuse me) blood in my urine, never had it before so was like hmm must be the diet, called my cdc and she said defo not normal see how it goes. Checked my weight on like 4 different weighing scales and looked like I had lost 9lbs in 4 days so I was well chuffed!! Then came saturday dun dun dun I woke up could hardly speak, was slurring all my words and couldn't string a sentence together, head felt very heavy couldn't hold it up. My other half was like, you've got to eat something so I had burger and chips and beans and cheese and it was amazing I had this bottomless hole that only filled on the last bite of the burger lol
I felt awful straightaway and gave my otherhalf evils for making me give in like that. Will not happen again (I hope)
Anyway since then I have felt really really good on the diet, not felt hungry once not thougth about food in that obsessive way that I did and I actually have quite alot of energy.

Had my weigh in today and lost 8 1/2 pounds, I know I shouldn't be but I was really really disappointed with that I was aiming for a stone and I only lost half that and I know that if I didn't eat that burger then I would have lost alot more so that teaches me.

I have been reading some diarys throughout the week on here to keep me going but didnt feel strong enough yet to write my own. Missyjo you were one that I kept on reading your my inspiration girlie!! lol Can't believe you do all that exercise!

I have always been overweight but it rocketed when I had my first child who is 3 in July it rose to 14 st then when I got pregnant with my daughter who was 1 march 31st it shrunk down to just under 12 st now its back up a bit. I joined curves which is a gym designed so you exercise like hell for 30 mins and its supposed to be equivalent to 120 mins in the gym. Did absolutely nothing for me. I'm getting desperate now because my weddings July 23rd and I don't want to be a "fat bride" I will hate it so needed to take drastic action and I think this diets just drastic enough so wish me luck guys. I'll be reading your diaries all the time as I carry on this path and I hope we can all reach our goals together.


One more thing I know I shouldn't but I'm still breastfeeding my little girl, I'm trying to wean her but it's alot harder than I thought it would be. Does anyone know the affects it'll have on me if any? I don't want to stop the diet and I don't want to stop breastfeeding. I haven't told my cdc because I honestly thought I'd have weaned her. She's on solids and only has a feed off me really to get her to sleep, I see it more like a child who wants a dummy, I know my milk will depleat very soon but hopefully that'll help get her off me quicker?

 

[MsV]

Hi lovely,

First I have to say a massive WELL done on your loss so far. Please don't beat yourself up on the burger etc. You needed to do it, so you did it, but you did the right thing by waking up and moving on with focus.

Now with the breast feeding - I think you have to speak to your CDC for real. The packets are packed full of vitamins and minerals for adults and are very powerful to ensure your organs etc are protected. If I'm not wrong, I think they are too much for little ones to absorb. Please please check.

If you have to take a couple of weeks away in order to focus on weaning your little one, then do that - we'll be here to support you when you get back! xx

 

[l20laura]

Hey MsV! I didnt even think about the vitamins I just thought that my milk will run out because I'm not eating and she'd be having the rest of my nutrients. I've gone cold turkey on her since reading your post, She's hating it and always pulling on my top but its for the best, she needs to be weaned and I need to lose weight so thanks for that.

Last night was hard my other half wanted a takeaway and kept trying to make me have some, like really putting pressure on me, I'd already had my bar so I wasn't hungry but in the end I just gave in, I don't know whats wrong with me that I always put other people before myself. After I hate and I was full I hated it it felt so horrible after all this time with an empty stomach even today I still feel full and I hate it. Never doing it again...well that's what I tell myself lol
Had a good time today took my babies to a play area and went crazy playing with them was great fun, had loads of energy.

Btw am I the only one struggling to drink the 4 pints of water per day? Sometimes I don't even manage a pint is that going to affect my weightloss?

 

[summerbear2013]

Hey
I struggle with the water too it's a nightmare lol

As a nurse I can say breastfeeding and CD don't go together as u will not leave yourself enough calories to get by perhaps y u went funny on the Saturday and the vitamins are not suitable for a babies digestive system. Another thing blood in urine us serious too and not related to CD. If I was you whilst u are not in ketosis after take away do a sample in the morning and take it to doctors to be checked Hun. If ur baby had blood in their wee you wouldn't hesitate so don't take risks on ur own health.
It's hard to keep in track when u have people twisting ur arm but I have been that fat bride only 5 month ago I was a size 18 and I looked nice but regret not sorting it out. Do u have a dress? Get back in ketosis and hang in there Hun. Xxx

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[Mishi]

Hello, I completely agree with Kate - blood in your urine is something you need to check out, ive not heard of this on cd and ive been off/on this diet for yrs. Let us know how you get on x

 

[l20laura]

Hey guys thanks for the advice, I know the blood wasnt normal but im too scared to go to the doctors incase they tell me to get off the diet and I'm desperate to lose the weight before the wedding, I know I'm being silly but I'm only ever going to get married once and I've always been big I want to be slim I hate myself when I'm big.

I've stopped feeding my baby girl, I didnt realise it would harm her otherwise I wouldnt have gone on the diet so quickly. But I've stopped it now and hopefully what I've fed her already hasn't had too much of an affect.

I do have a dress ordered it in January but it hasn't arrived in yet its a size 16 but its a corset so if i lose weight ill be able to tie it up no problem.

Todays been a difficult day went shopping and all I wanted was to buy something and eat it. My fiance has made dinner this evening for himself and the kids, pasta bake and I had to run upstairs to get rid of the smell could soooo eat some of that right now lol, but I was good and stuck to my toffee bar was quite yummy way better than the chocolate
I must be in ketosis now, tuesday was the last time I ate hopefully I am and am losing weight again, I weighed myself on 3 different scales today with shoes on one said 11st 8lbs the 2nd one said 11st 10lbs and the other said 12st 2lb my official weigh in last tuesday said 12st 3 1/2 lbs so I've lost something just confused on how much lol I'm swaying more towards the 11st 8lb one because its less lol I'd love to be below 12st thats one of my first goals

How was your wedding KateNicholson? Got any advice for a bride-to-be? x

 

[summerbear2013]

Ohhh weddings are a funny thing. So much prep n money for one day it's mad how quick it goes. It was tiring. One thing I was told that I did was really take it all in going down the aisle. Oh and let no one interfere lol. What's ur colour scheme etc. I need get my ass in gear as loads I need to sell on eBay Like the easel I bought for table plan, drapes. Table number holders and numbers and a brand new fur cape n muff never out off hanger lol. The thought of eBay tires me out tho lol.
Hope ur hanging in there. I am hoping for the all clear from this urine infection to restart mobday on cd as had to have a week off xxx

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[l20laura]

Hi Kate sorry its been a while since I've been on here I've really been struggling on this diet got my weigh in tomorrow she's coming to the house so fingers crossed I've lost something I really want to get below 12 st.
This wedding is doing my head in I wasn't expecting it to cost so much. My colour theme is orange and yellow but the bridesmaids dresses are a champagne colour so basically just the flowers and table centrepieces that have the orange and yellow colour. I'm doing my best not to let the future mother in law interfere but she causes sooo many arguments that I'm just like "fine do whatever its not worth it" I really wanted to have my wedding cake done at this specialist wedding cake shop they had done both my childrens christening cakes and I was really looking forward to it their cakes are like works of art then my OH was on the phone to her and she starts crying and having a go at him because she wanted to do the cake, now shes doing it and every time I try and say what I want for the cake she has a go at the OH and we have to go with what she wants, she bought down examples and I almost cried, they looked like a 3 yr old had done it but ah well as long as she's happy... lol
I could do with an easel for the table plan and table number holders. Let me know when you put ur stuff on ebay and I'll have a look

So this week has been especially hard I cooked some yummy looking muffins and really really wanted one but was good and didnt have one.
I had bad news that my son is going to need an operation and I was so down in the dumps that I ate and didnt care, then the next day I regretted it but there was nothing I could do, I need to find the strength to be stop wanting food, might put pics of me now on the cupboard doors to stop myself going in there. Was thinking of going to the gym but dont want to risk fainting or anything as I have my 2 to look after, does anyone know if it would be alright to go to the gym? and how often a week can I go?

 

[summerbear2013]

Hun weddings are the devil and it's awful that u feel she is taking over. My father in law tried sticking his nose in and was screaming down the phone to my OH saying 'I am the boss u'. Anyway we stuck to our guns and in the end he was only well enough to come to church so all things he'd moaned about didn't effect him.
I can send u a pic of the easel and number holders if u like if you are on email I can send it off I phone.
Just keep focussed on the goal and how good it will feel to be under 12 stone on the big day. It's really hard doing days 1-4 again all the time that's the bit I struggle with if I restart. Hang on in there but don't exercise if you aren't used to it. It can make u too weak xxx

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[l20laura]

That would be great Kate my email adde is [email protected]
Family can't live with them and definately cannot live without them.

Had my weigh in today and lost 3 lbs not exactly alot but its something especially after my binge in the week so I'm going to be happy about it. Now I am 12 st exactly and all I have to do is lose 1 more lb and I will have reached my first goal lol now to concentrate on the next one

 

[summerbear2013]

Will do over next few days hun xx

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[summerbear2013]

Laura is ur address right it keeps bouncing back. Are u on Facebook I can post on there straight away the pics xx

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[l20laura]

Heys, yeah my facebook name is Laura Flynn I'm really bad with finding people on facebook lol it should be the right email adde, [email protected]

Haven't been on here in a while, basically I was put on antibiotics last week and obviously you have to eat that with food and I was so down about it because my wedding is sooo close now that I really didnt want to stop that diet but hey ho it was a must. Been back on it since tuesday haven't had the heart to weigh myself so my next weigh in is next tuesday I think, my counsellor just doesnt talk to me at all.

Had my hair and make up trial yesterday and then went off to try on my dress after to see the overall look and to see if I like it. I was so nervous because last time I went to the dress shop was to order my dress and they kept telling me how much weight i'd put on and I was a fat cow now and should go on a diet. I was scared that because I hadn't lost as much as I'd wanted to yet I wouldn't fit into the dress, it fit lovely but I did cry a little because all I could see were my huge arms and my back boobs lol hopefully now I can stick to this diet again and it wont look like that on the day.

I'm in a little dilemma with my hair, I love the way it looks up but I think its always been a security thing wearing my hair down and I don't want to be uncomfortable on the day and selfconcious but it does look really nice up. hmm what to do