Slaney's Lipo diary

[Slaney]

Following the example of many others here I've decided to start my own diary. I lost 77 lbs on LT over the winter of '06/'07 in exactly 147 days. I broke my ankle in June and was very upset to find that due to inactivity and over- indulgence I was just a stone under my 'old' weight.

Starting back on Lipotrim is hard as there is no novelty and you know the long journey facing you.

Well . . . I really struggled through the first week. I think the only thing that got me through was remembering that I did get used to it last time round, that I was happy on it and felt that I could go on forever. They say it takes three weeks to replace one habit with another, so I persevered. Losing 8 and a half pounds on my first weigh-in last Thursday helped.
Anyway . . . I woke up this morning in great form. It was as if the 'feel good factor' had just clicked in. Not a bother on me today, feel great. Son brought home new girlfriend for the first time so went to extra trouble of making soup and desert with dinner. No trouble. Wasn't even faintly tempted. Had a funeral to go to this evening and a black trousers that I could not fasten just one week ago actually fitted, albeit a little tightly.


Okay . . . I know that I'll have down days, that socialising will be particularly difficult, but I do feel as if I'm 'in the zone' now.

So if you're just starting and finding it difficult, it will pass. If you're having a bad day remember that there is a possibility that the next one will be better. And waking up in the morning, knowing that you've been 'good' is a great feeling. I know that however good food would taste it would not compensate for the disappointment I would feel waking up the following morning knowing that I had given in, the feeling of despair knowing I had wasted the advantage of the days' dieting spent so far, that not only would I not lose weight, but would quickly gain the amount lost and probably go on gaining over time.

So . . . 11 days done and dusted. The last time I did LT, I promised myself that I'd stick to it for 100 days and went on to do 147. So that's my promise to myself this time too. I hereby promise to stick to this for 100 days. That means I'll only have to do what I've done 9 more times. 'Cos I'm worth it.

Good luck to all. Please keep posting. I draw so much inspiration from you all and hope I can contribute just a little to ye too.

 

[missy3]

Hey and welcome bk to LT, U seem very positive, im sure u'll do great this time, just like last time. xx

 

[Slaney]

Thank you so much for your reply, Missy.

Well . . . day 12 here and not feeling as chirpy this morning. Possibly due to fact that I immediately hopped (possibly the wrong verb to use when I think of broken ankle) on the scales and saw no loss. Why do I do that when I promised to only go by pharmacy scales?
Anyway . . . here we go. Day 12. Weigh-in is the day after tomorrow so I'll just get my first shake into me and carry on. They say it's easier to act yourself into a feeling than to feel yourself into an action so I'll try acting up-beat and get myself through just today.
I'll possibly post here later . . . that's what is getting me through the days . . . reading posts, drawing inspiration, studying weight loss of others . . . and convincing myself that if I can keep going, one day my story can be an inspiration to others.

 

[SandraB]

Good luck Slaney, know what you mean about the inactivity....I never really had a weight problem until I shattered my right leg in 2006, got 18 pins and plates in it. I initially put on 3 1/2 stone during my 3 year recovery, kept losing about a stone and putting it back on again but finally decided to do this......

Keep posting, I find that it helps me stay focused x

 

[Candlewix]

Hi Slaney

Lovely post, well done on your positive attitude!
I am also a restarter having gained back the weight I lost in a year and I have not broken any bones so there is no good reason ecxept I went back to work in a restaurant d'oh, food addict in a food location, not good!!
Into my second week and ditto on that first struggle, last night I could have devoured the chilli I made the day before for my hubby.
So watch this space! I'll see you when we get there !!

 

[Slaney]

Thanks for your reply, Sandra. Three year recovery??? Jeeze . . . and I'm complaining about three months! Weren't you great to only gain so little? I'd be as big as a bishop if I were laid up for three years. Good for you. You're doing great and best of luck. I certainly will log on here to stay focused. Find I'm doing it several times a day already!

 

[Slaney]

And thank you to you, Candlewix! Work in a restaurant? Surrounded by food? I find it hard enough cooking dinner in evenings! Aren't you great? Good to have somebody at the same stage of diet. I'll be watching you! And yes, we'll get there with the help of all on this forum.

 

[Slaney]

Right . . . it's the afternoon of Day 12. Was at the burial this morning. Invited back for meal to hotel and had to refuse. Beautiful day here in Sunny South East. Between jigs and reels it was after 3:00 before I had my second shake and I was wall falling by then, not having been able to get enough liquids into me either. Anyway . . . I survived. Every hour is a victory today. There's a cooked chicken in the fridge and it's telling me that a little bit of protein wouldn't count. However, I know from experience that I'm an all or nothing person and I would not stop at mouthful of chicken. Eating awakens a hunger monster in me. Can only keep it at bay by not giving in at all. Here's hoping I'll stick it out today and maybe that ol' scales will be kinder to me tomorrow . . . or better still resist that tempation too and wait (weight?) till weigh-in on Thurs. I'm also trying to prepare myself for not expecting too much from that. The first time I did LT I only lost 1 lb in second week despite sticking rigidly to the instructions. I am a slow loser so, unfortunately, do not lose the large amounts that others do. Still, have promised myself to do 100 days, 12 almost down so only 88 to go. That would bring me up to Jan 6th. Let's not think about Christmas just yet. On diet last time, I found week days much easier than weekends as I have only evening meal to cook. Tomorrow it'll be back to normal routine and all will be better. Every day this will get easier.
Hope all of ye are finding today easy and that those weighing in will have good news to report. Look forward to reading your posts.

 

[SandraB]

Thanks for your reply, Sandra. Three year recovery??? Jeeze . . . and I'm complaining about three months! Weren't you great to only gain so little? I'd be as big as a bishop if I were laid up for three years. Good for you. You're doing great and best of luck. I certainly will log on here to stay focused. Find I'm doing it several times a day already!

For me those 3 1/2 stone made me feel like an entirely different person.....it's only the fact that I'm having a hip replacement in December that's finally made me shift my fat ar8e into gear! It was toooooo easy to use the accident as an excuse.

This might make you laugh, perhaps? I treated myself today.......to a lovely walking stick!! Black and covered in red roses....if I'm going to be a cripple I'm going to be a bloody stylish one!

 

[SlimmerSu]

Your attitude is inspiring Slaney... I have no doubt you will succeed and it will be lovely to hear from someone who knows the ropes x x x

 

[SlimmerSu]

Good luck Slaney, know what you mean about the inactivity....I never really had a weight problem until I shattered my right leg in 2006, got 18 pins and plates in it. I initially put on 3 1/2 stone during my 3 year recovery, kept losing about a stone and putting it back on again but finally decided to do this......

Keep posting, I find that it helps me stay focused x

What happens if you go through that metal detector thingy at at the airport??????

 

[Slaney]

You know what, Sandra? You'll be a brand new woman with your new hip and beautiful new figure! You'll have to post a photo of you and your stylish walking stick! How long does recovery take after hip op? I think they get you out walking before you leave the hospital, right?

And Su . . . please don't think I'm an inspiration to anybody . . . more of a dire warning! What I have not said before on this site is that this is my THIRD time to do Lipotrim! First reached target in Feb 2007. Second time in August of last year, 2009. And here I am again! Slow learner or what? Each time I vow that I'll never again put myself through this, that I'll go get weighed each week in pharmacy, eat wisely . . . anybody who has a weight problem is familiar with all the good intentions. But each time I go back to my old eating habits and quelle surprise? I find all the lost pounds all too easily. Granted this time I have a small excuse because of accident, but to be truthful, the accident only speeded up the process. So, I'm begging of my future self, please learn that losing the weight is only half the battle. Staying at target, at least for me, will have to be an ongoing conscious campaign. Anybody starting the journey, please don't take this as being off putting. Gaining weight was completely my own fault. I'm greedy by nature, am never satisfied, love food and far too fond of my glass of wine, which of course rarely is confined to 'a' glass.

As regards metal detector thingy in airport, the pins and plates set it off. My accident happened in Spain. I had to come home via Heathrow in a wheelchair. When the alarm sounded a lady had to take me aside and run the whatsit up and down the plaster of Paris. She apologised to me and said: Sometimes I hate this job.

 

[SandraB]

What happens if you go through that metal detector thingy at at the airport??????

Depends as I still have pins in my leg from the accident. Some x-rays are ok, I carry a laminated copy of an x-Ray of what's in my leg! The hip op will be different as the artificial hip is made of ceramic, it's supposed to last for about 30 years!

 

[SandraB]

Slaney, yup, my surgeon says that he will have me standing the next day and out of hospital in 5! Then it's six weeks on crutches, then a stick and hopefully fully recovered in 6 months. I'm actually hoping to ski again next year but perhaps that's a bit ambitious? I had my accident in France, not a pleasant experience but it was good for my French.

 

[Daisy1966]

good luck Slaney!! Did you do a diary before when you did LT?, some of your entries are very honest and sincere I was wondering if you printed and laminated your reasons for wanting to keep the weight off and put it on the fridge it may be a daily reminder of how you felt. I really look forward to watching your progress.

xxx

 

[Ella Belle]

Hi Slaney...if you're from Wexford I'm going to take it for granted that you're into hurling..or at least follow the county team in the Summer..or as more recently..in the early Spring and not into the Summer ..I was just wondering if we encouraged and reprimanded ourselves as much as we do from sidelines or watching the tv would we get on better?? You're story is inspiring, because even though yes it's your 3rd time, you are not giving up..that's the important thing...when I'm playing a match we're told to never give up and if we make a mistake just shake it off and move on..and work as a team..a little like this forum is..

Maybe this doesn't make sense, but it helps me a little to think of it that way, like imagining I've my very own stand full of supporters on my shoulder cheering me on and supporting me

 

[Slaney]

No, Sandra, not over ambitious. With that carrot dangling in front of you, you'll set the pistes on fire! Have you a date for your op in Dec?You'll need someone else doing all the work at Christmas time. Was it a skiing accident that shattered your leg? I speak French but not a word of Spanish. Before surgery I got my son to teach me how to say in Spanish: "I don't speak Spanish". "I have a pain". "I want to go to the loo". That was the full extent of my communication skills. Is French spoken at all in Jersey? Are you from Jersey? Showing my ignorance now but what do you call a person from Jersey? Have just read a book, name of which escapes me now . . . something with potato pie in the name? . . . about Jersey in war time. Brilliant read. When I was a student, way back when, many students tried for jobs in Jersey. There was no income tax . . . have I that right? Is that still the case?

Many thanks, Daisy. I have kept a diary since I was about 15 and have records of amounts lost on various diets. Makes for depressing reading as I've lost my own weight several times over and I should be a minus entity years ago! Your idea of reasons on fridge sounds good. Will try that plus perhaps photos of me at my fattest. Have you lost 61 lbs since July 1st? That's terrific! That's the 100 days that I'm planning.

Well . . . Day 12 almost done, and I have survived. 'Twas hard today; here's hoping tomorrow is easier. Apart from wanting to eat, I'm feeling good. Time passes. I'm fat. I'm miserable being fat. But it helps to feel that at least I am doing something about it. So many people are miserable, the causes of which they cannot remedy. With me, the solution to my only major problem is within my own hands. And it's a problem that could be solved in a mere 100 days. Now why would I be so foolish as not to tackle it? Wouldn't this Christmas be all the sweeter in clothes a few sizes smaller? Even possible to be in a size 12 by then.
I'm feeling good in other ways too. I'm wearing a track suit bottoms right now . . . and it doesn't look looser but the bottom of the legs are all bunched around my ankles which means they are not being as well held up as before.
I'm sleeping really well. Normally an insomniac this is very welcome plus I wake feeling rested.
My skin is not exactly glowing but clearer. Last time on LT my hair got really shiny. That hasn't happened yet but chances are it will. By the way, I have very fine hair, not strong at all yet I never had problems with hair loss, thank goodness.
Right. Enough of my trivia for today. Sleep tight folks and all the best to anybody weighing in tomorrow. Thank you for reading this.

 

[SandraB]

Hi Slaney, no not a skiing accident, I fell off a boat pissed on a Saturday night.....my French isn't bad I guess as we have a holiday home there. I learned the French for please may I have a bedpan pretty quickly! I am originally from here but no, whilst we have French street names etc it's very English.

Jersey is still an area of low taxation but not no taxation. Like everywhere else, however, we are suffering the effects of the economic downturn. Jersey natives are commonly referred to as Jersey beans.

Date of my op is 2nd December.....can't come soon enough!

 

[Daisy1966]

OMG Sandra its just dawned on me who you reminded me of in your pic its Stephanie Beecham! It only took about 3 weeks but I got there in the end ! xxx

 

[Daisy1966]

Slaney would it be better to have a photo of you all slim on the fridge? Much more positive xx