Prettyfacebut?
...body-has-caught-up!!!!
Hello my friends in cyberland!
Feeling really really low....don't even know where it came from....ended the week really tired, in fact exhausted, didn't go to the gym today but kept active decorating.
Sitting here on my own on a Sat night, avoiding seeing one of my friends as whenever we get together its all about food (not telling her about CD as she will either tell everyone we know or start competing...she has a tendency to copy me....in an extreme way!)
The tears started then the bad thoughts....fat...forty...single...lonely...fat....no life....weird poo!....want babies...want a relationship...bla bla bla...
Sticking to CD 99.9% but struggling to eat all my packs and craving food and feel like I have a big secret that I want to share so I can get some encouragement and support but feeling so mentally 'delicate' that I can't cos 1 bit of indifference or 1 negative response would just be too much right now.
I don't know.....just wish I had someone I could talk this through with, who would listen to my hopes and dreams...and give me a big hug?
X:cry:
Feeling really really low....don't even know where it came from....ended the week really tired, in fact exhausted, didn't go to the gym today but kept active decorating.
Sitting here on my own on a Sat night, avoiding seeing one of my friends as whenever we get together its all about food (not telling her about CD as she will either tell everyone we know or start competing...she has a tendency to copy me....in an extreme way!)
The tears started then the bad thoughts....fat...forty...single...lonely...fat....no life....weird poo!....want babies...want a relationship...bla bla bla...
Sticking to CD 99.9% but struggling to eat all my packs and craving food and feel like I have a big secret that I want to share so I can get some encouragement and support but feeling so mentally 'delicate' that I can't cos 1 bit of indifference or 1 negative response would just be too much right now.
I don't know.....just wish I had someone I could talk this through with, who would listen to my hopes and dreams...and give me a big hug?
X:cry: