In search of me
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I know some of you are starting and some struggling and know how tough it can be. I have managed to sick wih it, depite some major setbacks along the way (5 ibs toal loss in 3 weeks being the major one!) and wanted to share the advantages of the prog and what has changed for me. I started a huge 15 stone 5 and at 5 ft nowt thats HUGE! Constant backache, miserable, hips hurt and generally felt pretty crap about myself.
OK so I am only on week 7 & a long way to go but already there are huge plusses. I've lost 23 ibs and over 28 inches (as of last week the measurements as havent done them this week). My clothes are literally dropping off & I actually have no idea what size I am now! Possibly an 18 from a 22/24...
I am not denying its been hard. On one trip to tesco (Which I now avoid) I was almost in tears because I just wanted to eat. Something. Anything. Managed not to, came on here & vented and got through it. I've focussed on getting through each day and try not to think about the journey ahead beause its such a long one. I'm starting to learn not to compare myself to others as my losses have been low and inch loss high while others are the other way around & thats been a hard lesson to learn.
I am also learning not to use food to cope with everyday situations and am now at the stage when stuffing my face is no longer my immediate reaction to stress, tiredness and anger....well anything actually. It feel so liberating I can hardly tell you just how good that feels.
For the first time in a very long time & am starting to have confidence in myself. I had my hair chopped off yesterday (photos on blog later! Need to get someone to take them!!) and it feels great! Always had an image of long sexy hair but it doesent suit me! Bones are starting to emerge and I am having to get used to a new shape; my boobs are shriniking with alarming speed; legs & jaw bone returning and I do have some loose skin which some will go and the rest I will have to just get used to. Its not great but it is much better than feeling **** about myself.
The best part of this is the love bit. I am learning, possibly for the first time, to love myself, warts & all. Even better I have been so enormously touched by the love, support & encouragement of my family, friends, work collegues, group and you lot here. I really could not have done it without all of those - esp people here who know what hell this diet can be at times. So a heartfelt thank you from me.
Bottom line (albeit a very sagy bottom that could do with a few bum lifts!!) is that some days the diet is so unbeievably tough but if you manage to resist and stick with it the benefits well outweigh the tough bit. Even better there's no guilt afterwards or having to get back into ketosis! So hang on there pepys - it works if you work it!! Big hugs!
OK so I am only on week 7 & a long way to go but already there are huge plusses. I've lost 23 ibs and over 28 inches (as of last week the measurements as havent done them this week). My clothes are literally dropping off & I actually have no idea what size I am now! Possibly an 18 from a 22/24...
I am not denying its been hard. On one trip to tesco (Which I now avoid) I was almost in tears because I just wanted to eat. Something. Anything. Managed not to, came on here & vented and got through it. I've focussed on getting through each day and try not to think about the journey ahead beause its such a long one. I'm starting to learn not to compare myself to others as my losses have been low and inch loss high while others are the other way around & thats been a hard lesson to learn.
I am also learning not to use food to cope with everyday situations and am now at the stage when stuffing my face is no longer my immediate reaction to stress, tiredness and anger....well anything actually. It feel so liberating I can hardly tell you just how good that feels.
For the first time in a very long time & am starting to have confidence in myself. I had my hair chopped off yesterday (photos on blog later! Need to get someone to take them!!) and it feels great! Always had an image of long sexy hair but it doesent suit me! Bones are starting to emerge and I am having to get used to a new shape; my boobs are shriniking with alarming speed; legs & jaw bone returning and I do have some loose skin which some will go and the rest I will have to just get used to. Its not great but it is much better than feeling **** about myself.
The best part of this is the love bit. I am learning, possibly for the first time, to love myself, warts & all. Even better I have been so enormously touched by the love, support & encouragement of my family, friends, work collegues, group and you lot here. I really could not have done it without all of those - esp people here who know what hell this diet can be at times. So a heartfelt thank you from me.
Bottom line (albeit a very sagy bottom that could do with a few bum lifts!!) is that some days the diet is so unbeievably tough but if you manage to resist and stick with it the benefits well outweigh the tough bit. Even better there's no guilt afterwards or having to get back into ketosis! So hang on there pepys - it works if you work it!! Big hugs!