Hey,
I've had a few days filled with very serious thought.
I finally decided ( after 5 weeks of careful deliberation) not to come off LT for the month of august because
1) I can drink more water during the summer than the winter because my summer job makes it easier, so why sacrafice the oppertunity.
2) I'd be coming off it to eat and drink-not binge, but in moderation- but still, what does that say about my priorities???
3) After 8 weeks I think I have the strength to face the magnitude of the journey ahead (that sounds very grand doesn't it??), probably because I don't really care about food as much as I used to.
4) If I don't take the break I should be at my goal or very close to it when I refeed for my hoilday in mid December, and could be a size 10 at Christmas!
5) My mum n bf think I should stay on it if I can, and their support makes it so much easier.
They're pretty much in order of importance, 1 and 2 are about equal.
I'd love to know what you guys think, because you have offered be unbelievable gems of wisdom before, and you guys know what I'm going through much better than anyone else I could talk too.
I'm really scared about 5 more months on LT!!!! Really really scared. And even more terrified of refeeding and maintenance!!!
I have also been thinking recently about food addictions and how similar it is to alcholism. I figure I started eating the way I did for some reason, and I don't think I fully understand those reasons, and that's something I have to address but more importantly what can I do about the reasons I kept eating the way I was???
How much of it is a physical thing, and how much is mental? Will breaking my food associations on LT really give me a clean slate, after 9 weeks I don't feel like it is clean, but maybe after 7 months it will be?
I think this is harder for people who were fat as a child, and have never been slim as an adult, and those who were very very very obese, I had a BMI of 47 for God's sake, how did I let it get that bad???????
Will we always be Recovering Fat People?
Guen
I've had a few days filled with very serious thought.
I finally decided ( after 5 weeks of careful deliberation) not to come off LT for the month of august because
1) I can drink more water during the summer than the winter because my summer job makes it easier, so why sacrafice the oppertunity.
2) I'd be coming off it to eat and drink-not binge, but in moderation- but still, what does that say about my priorities???
3) After 8 weeks I think I have the strength to face the magnitude of the journey ahead (that sounds very grand doesn't it??), probably because I don't really care about food as much as I used to.
4) If I don't take the break I should be at my goal or very close to it when I refeed for my hoilday in mid December, and could be a size 10 at Christmas!
5) My mum n bf think I should stay on it if I can, and their support makes it so much easier.
They're pretty much in order of importance, 1 and 2 are about equal.
I'd love to know what you guys think, because you have offered be unbelievable gems of wisdom before, and you guys know what I'm going through much better than anyone else I could talk too.
I'm really scared about 5 more months on LT!!!! Really really scared. And even more terrified of refeeding and maintenance!!!
I have also been thinking recently about food addictions and how similar it is to alcholism. I figure I started eating the way I did for some reason, and I don't think I fully understand those reasons, and that's something I have to address but more importantly what can I do about the reasons I kept eating the way I was???
How much of it is a physical thing, and how much is mental? Will breaking my food associations on LT really give me a clean slate, after 9 weeks I don't feel like it is clean, but maybe after 7 months it will be?
I think this is harder for people who were fat as a child, and have never been slim as an adult, and those who were very very very obese, I had a BMI of 47 for God's sake, how did I let it get that bad???????
Will we always be Recovering Fat People?
Guen