Aw, mate
I am so sorry you feel like this- I have really missed you being around- you always make me laugh and pep me up.
My sister was being very down last night about all the food that she couldn't have at xmas- saying it isn't fair. It was almost like she believed it was someone elses fault and wanted to blame someone/something. I got a bit supernanny with her:-
We have a choice. I CAN eat what I want over christmas, I CAN eat 10 sausage rolls and drink my weight in wine and have a huge helping of christmas pudding and leftovers, etc. But if I do, I have to accept the consequences.
Every time you feel the need to fall of the SW wagon try and remember how you felt about your weight before you lost weight- is that worth a sausage roll that won't even taste that nice anyway and will leave you feeling like you failed?
Use flexible syns for functions, but keep at it the rest of the time- you have come so far and this is a big hurdle to jump, but if you don't try you will feel a failure which could lead to you reverting back to the 'old' behaviour.
If you truly liked eating what you wanted before SW and were happy with how you looked/felt then that is fantastic- go and eat a pizza for me too!
If you didn't like being bigger then remember that you made a CHOICE to change- nobody forced you and every mouthful is a choice- if you really want the food, eat it! It doesn't make you a bad person, it isn't against the law, it isn't hurting anyone else- but accept that you will gain weight. That is your choice.
I have found this really works for me when at a buffet/function/restaurant. I look at the menu and get all whiney in my head- then I say- "Have the burger, chips and bakewell tart if you want, but accept that you will probably gain 2lb as a result" at that point I usually change my mind and find something else- sometimes I don't, eat it, have a gain and whine even louder because it is NEVER worth it on weigh-in day for me.
In a really selfish way, I would prefer if you chose to stick with it, because I miss you Hellie........and a literal kick up the bum is not out of the question because you don't live that far away!!!
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