Sez
has started again!!
I am struggling so badly that I really feel I might not make to the end of this diet now.
I have tried hard to focus on the positives of losing all the weight, and have tried not to let the old chatterbox get the better of me. I know I have about 4 more stone to lose, but I do not have the strength of character and resolve to carry on.
Its almost as if LL has become this huge all encompassing "thing" that has totally taken over my life. Its all I think about, and I am even having nightmares now, which are food related. I am spending money (we havent got!) like water, almost as if I am trying to fill a void. What that void is I dont know. I dont think it is food, as far as all the junk I used to ingest goes but more just normal, healthy food. I am constantly planning the type of foods we will all eat as a family, come the great day! I have low GI cookbooks, I tear healthy recipes from magazines. I have bought some lovely wine as a treat (& I mean a treat, I am not a big drinker, never have been.) which I am really looking forward too.
I know that you guys will help me through this. Thats why I am asking for your help now.
What route do I take? I dont want to be the fat blimp again, but I am pretty miserable now. Not the same kind of mis I was when I was 6 stone heavier, but a lonelier kind of miserable, who feels like life is passing by with me on the other side of the glass.
oh sh*t. I am never happy and I dont know what I want do I?
I should add, I dont want a switch to CD. I think the LL managment is what I will need once I re-enter FoodWorld!
I have tried hard to focus on the positives of losing all the weight, and have tried not to let the old chatterbox get the better of me. I know I have about 4 more stone to lose, but I do not have the strength of character and resolve to carry on.
Its almost as if LL has become this huge all encompassing "thing" that has totally taken over my life. Its all I think about, and I am even having nightmares now, which are food related. I am spending money (we havent got!) like water, almost as if I am trying to fill a void. What that void is I dont know. I dont think it is food, as far as all the junk I used to ingest goes but more just normal, healthy food. I am constantly planning the type of foods we will all eat as a family, come the great day! I have low GI cookbooks, I tear healthy recipes from magazines. I have bought some lovely wine as a treat (& I mean a treat, I am not a big drinker, never have been.) which I am really looking forward too.
I know that you guys will help me through this. Thats why I am asking for your help now.
What route do I take? I dont want to be the fat blimp again, but I am pretty miserable now. Not the same kind of mis I was when I was 6 stone heavier, but a lonelier kind of miserable, who feels like life is passing by with me on the other side of the glass.
oh sh*t. I am never happy and I dont know what I want do I?
I should add, I dont want a switch to CD. I think the LL managment is what I will need once I re-enter FoodWorld!