:sigh: Yeah, I did get pretty angry at myself afterwards, because you know what? It really wasn't worth it. It didn't particularly fill a hole, if anything, it sort of made it bigger because I was so annoyed with myself.
At the time it was quite weird. Almost without any imput from my brain, I was munching. I hadn't talked myself into it or anything. It was like I was working on auto pilot or something.
That's not an excuse, but it made me think that maybe it's all just in my head-this whole craving/hunger malarky. People don't starve on LT, they only feel like they are.
So, because I'm so annoyed at myself I'm being really strict and almost telling myself off every time I even *consider* having a munch. It's like my mum in my head!
So today I'm being super! Had my morning shake at 11, my second shake at work and now I'm looking forward to my soup tonight!
I know 'food detachment' isn't supposed to kick in till much later, but I'm mentally trying to do it now because y'know what? I'm fed up of being addicted to food, because that's blatently what it is! And like any addiction, it's bad for me and ultimatly it makes me feel bad, both physically and mentally. I did not wake up feeling good, but now I feel bloomin' marvellous because I'm so 'OO-RAH!' about it!!! Grrrrr!!! Hear me roar
Anyway, I have a ton of chores that need doing! I have to do the washing up, clean out the hamsters and guinea pigs, hoover the whole flat (because the guinea pigs pooed EVERYWHERE, clean the bathroom, sinks...the list goes on and on, but that should keep me busy until i can settle down with my lovely soup. I still can't believe how much I actually enjoy the soup! I really do, according to you lot, thats mental!
Anyway, thanks to nerac to slapping me round the head, i needed that, and to katy for being such a cheerful soul!
I'm gonna go busy myself with rodent poo! Joy!!!