So much has happened to me the past few weeks i thought making a diary to vent was the best idea!
So im lying here wide awake at 4am n this has pretty much been the norm for the past 3 weeks... My anxiety is back with a vengeance
So where did it all go wrong? A few weeks ago i was healthy, happy and an avid atkinser... Then i went on a girlie holiday with my friends which i was so excited about but it all went downhill.
The holiday started off great... Until the 4th night when my best friend decided to drunkenly punch me in the face :| she cut my eye open n i was left with a black swollen eye. She was distraught by her actions, and me being the bigger and better (and i would like to think more mature) person, i forgave her. It angered me though that she suddenly became the 'victim' in the situation as she was beside herself for what she had done. Well heres a tip hunni, dont go around assaulting people. Its all been 'put behind us' now but its really threw me into a bit of a depression and im still hurting inside over the ordeal.
To add insult to injury, i called my boyfriend when i was so distressed about the situation seeking comfort and support n he proceeded to dump me over the phone. Wow, double whammy (as you can see this really was the holiday of a lifetime!)
I know its no excuse but its kick started all my bad eating habits as ive started comfort eating. This has led to a 6lb gain which is a vicious circle in itself as i now feel disgusted in myself :'(
I feel the first step to feeling happy again is to start feeling healthy again. So tomorrow is a new day, day 1 of my rekindled atkins journey. Positive thinking from now on
So im lying here wide awake at 4am n this has pretty much been the norm for the past 3 weeks... My anxiety is back with a vengeance
So where did it all go wrong? A few weeks ago i was healthy, happy and an avid atkinser... Then i went on a girlie holiday with my friends which i was so excited about but it all went downhill.
The holiday started off great... Until the 4th night when my best friend decided to drunkenly punch me in the face :| she cut my eye open n i was left with a black swollen eye. She was distraught by her actions, and me being the bigger and better (and i would like to think more mature) person, i forgave her. It angered me though that she suddenly became the 'victim' in the situation as she was beside herself for what she had done. Well heres a tip hunni, dont go around assaulting people. Its all been 'put behind us' now but its really threw me into a bit of a depression and im still hurting inside over the ordeal.
To add insult to injury, i called my boyfriend when i was so distressed about the situation seeking comfort and support n he proceeded to dump me over the phone. Wow, double whammy (as you can see this really was the holiday of a lifetime!)
I know its no excuse but its kick started all my bad eating habits as ive started comfort eating. This has led to a 6lb gain which is a vicious circle in itself as i now feel disgusted in myself :'(
I feel the first step to feeling happy again is to start feeling healthy again. So tomorrow is a new day, day 1 of my rekindled atkins journey. Positive thinking from now on