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has started again!!
Emailed my CDC, who said she'd be happy to have me back, just to let her know what my order would be. I replied a week ago, with my restart order, but no reply!! I re-emailed last night, and I am hoping she will get in touch soon.
So, just to let you know I am still waiting for my big restart, hoping it will be soon. I am avidly reading your posts and gaining confidence each day from all the positive stories here.
As an aside, got my weekly email from Ice Moose today, all about beneficial intent. At the end he relays a tale about being asked what the benefit was in being as large as he was. After reading his reply, I wondered if there was a reason ( a benefit, if you like) for me regaining so much weight. I thought hard and my answer was that I use(d) my fat as a security blanket, to hide me from the world and to take the blame when things went wrong (ie the benefit). When I became more normal in size, and my personal life went completely hay wire, I could not blame it on being fat any more. Rather than seek out the real reason for my problems, I swiftly and easily regained the weight and then became the invisible fat woman once again.
Now I have had this eureka moment, I feel I will be better able to cope with life, slim or otherwise. My DH & I are really working hard on our issues, and if things do go wrong again, I will know that it isnt my fat to blame. I feel stronger and more able to cope with both this diet (when I eventually restart) and life in general. Thanks Mike!
So, just to let you know I am still waiting for my big restart, hoping it will be soon. I am avidly reading your posts and gaining confidence each day from all the positive stories here.
As an aside, got my weekly email from Ice Moose today, all about beneficial intent. At the end he relays a tale about being asked what the benefit was in being as large as he was. After reading his reply, I wondered if there was a reason ( a benefit, if you like) for me regaining so much weight. I thought hard and my answer was that I use(d) my fat as a security blanket, to hide me from the world and to take the blame when things went wrong (ie the benefit). When I became more normal in size, and my personal life went completely hay wire, I could not blame it on being fat any more. Rather than seek out the real reason for my problems, I swiftly and easily regained the weight and then became the invisible fat woman once again.
Now I have had this eureka moment, I feel I will be better able to cope with life, slim or otherwise. My DH & I are really working hard on our issues, and if things do go wrong again, I will know that it isnt my fat to blame. I feel stronger and more able to cope with both this diet (when I eventually restart) and life in general. Thanks Mike!