TinkleWinkle
Full Member
Morning
my minds been so full of thoughts for the past 48hrs, I feel like my heads going to explode!!!!! Not in a bad way! So dont panic, so I thought I'd pop in & discuss if poss....
I have been reading, thinking & trying to work out why I fail, or appear to have this battle with food in my life & I've come to this conclusion.
The reality is that I'm on my own at the mo with 2 kids, when I get stresses (I work full time thus juggling becomes middle name) & strains I turn to food, drink & end up fatter & more miserable! The key is the questions I need to ask myself before I actually go to eat, drink or physically buy is isnt it!
If I'm having a crap day - so what yesterday want as bad & tomroow could be better? I dont mean in the eating world I'm talking just an average everyday day??????
I've often felt, what a mess I've made of my life, should have done better, why did he hit me? Was it my fault! Simple fact is no to all of these. Is my life really a mess compared to the rest of the world - I think not! Have I failed my kids, not at all I love them they love me, my marriage is in tatters but it want me that spent all my spare time with 'mates' down the pub - oh then beat me up so badly I had fractures, cuts black eyes etc etc, he did that not me!
So, I've decided that my comfort layer of fat, is partly to keep him away - he'll leave me alone if I'm fat. I dont want to meet anyone else so if I'll stay in & eat my way to happiness. But this isnt working either. I do want to go out, look nice and have fun for me - is that so bad - not really.
I'm doing this for me, yes I am. I am also doing so my mum can see that I have embraced life & am enjoying it rather than exisiting in it, I'm doing it to inspire my best friend so that she loses weight too & I'm doing it so that I am a happy Mum who smiles, takes them out, goes out, looks nice!
Thanks xxxxxxxxxx
my minds been so full of thoughts for the past 48hrs, I feel like my heads going to explode!!!!! Not in a bad way! So dont panic, so I thought I'd pop in & discuss if poss....
I have been reading, thinking & trying to work out why I fail, or appear to have this battle with food in my life & I've come to this conclusion.
The reality is that I'm on my own at the mo with 2 kids, when I get stresses (I work full time thus juggling becomes middle name) & strains I turn to food, drink & end up fatter & more miserable! The key is the questions I need to ask myself before I actually go to eat, drink or physically buy is isnt it!
If I'm having a crap day - so what yesterday want as bad & tomroow could be better? I dont mean in the eating world I'm talking just an average everyday day??????
I've often felt, what a mess I've made of my life, should have done better, why did he hit me? Was it my fault! Simple fact is no to all of these. Is my life really a mess compared to the rest of the world - I think not! Have I failed my kids, not at all I love them they love me, my marriage is in tatters but it want me that spent all my spare time with 'mates' down the pub - oh then beat me up so badly I had fractures, cuts black eyes etc etc, he did that not me!
So, I've decided that my comfort layer of fat, is partly to keep him away - he'll leave me alone if I'm fat. I dont want to meet anyone else so if I'll stay in & eat my way to happiness. But this isnt working either. I do want to go out, look nice and have fun for me - is that so bad - not really.
I'm doing this for me, yes I am. I am also doing so my mum can see that I have embraced life & am enjoying it rather than exisiting in it, I'm doing it to inspire my best friend so that she loses weight too & I'm doing it so that I am a happy Mum who smiles, takes them out, goes out, looks nice!
Thanks xxxxxxxxxx