sukie sue
this is My time to shine!
:wave_cry: bye bye abstinence ,
hello scary world of food .
started management yesterday evening after deciding im feeling too bony and i really dont want to loose an extra 8lb before management ( and any losses i might get with that).
so here i am , not as terrified as last night when faced with my first peice of real food in 19 weeks, but apprehensive to say the least , but hey !!! im possetive , moivated and feeling fine
so i will endeavor to update my diary daily and try to give as much info and motivation that i have got from those who have gone bravely before me
(aj, tootsie and all the rest you know who you are )
so last night ...
decided if i was doing this 'eating thing' again i would do it right and make it count so , i laid the table ( for 1),put out my cutlery and folded a napkin ala french women dont get fat, i was determined to make this first foray into the scary world of solids memorable and right.
i sat in total silence on my big table slowly eating a piece of oven baked cod fillet with ground pepper, mmm it was good i guess , tasted devine but it kindof killed the mystique of food that you tend to get when abstaining and that was a little sad:cry: . but i braved it and caried on ,
think i managed about 40 gramms before stopping thinking i was full . like you aj i told myself i could go back if needed , but within no time i realise id had enough.
stilll felt full at 10 when i needed to have bar and hot chocolate but i must admit i did enjoy eating them curled up on the sofa , it felt almost treat like , but too much so today i had my toffe nut bar for brekkie .
went to bed chilled and not so scared anymore,(by god my tummy wasnt half protesting though)
hello scary world of food .
started management yesterday evening after deciding im feeling too bony and i really dont want to loose an extra 8lb before management ( and any losses i might get with that).
so here i am , not as terrified as last night when faced with my first peice of real food in 19 weeks, but apprehensive to say the least , but hey !!! im possetive , moivated and feeling fine
so i will endeavor to update my diary daily and try to give as much info and motivation that i have got from those who have gone bravely before me
(aj, tootsie and all the rest you know who you are )
so last night ...
decided if i was doing this 'eating thing' again i would do it right and make it count so , i laid the table ( for 1),put out my cutlery and folded a napkin ala french women dont get fat, i was determined to make this first foray into the scary world of solids memorable and right.
i sat in total silence on my big table slowly eating a piece of oven baked cod fillet with ground pepper, mmm it was good i guess , tasted devine but it kindof killed the mystique of food that you tend to get when abstaining and that was a little sad:cry: . but i braved it and caried on ,
think i managed about 40 gramms before stopping thinking i was full . like you aj i told myself i could go back if needed , but within no time i realise id had enough.
stilll felt full at 10 when i needed to have bar and hot chocolate but i must admit i did enjoy eating them curled up on the sofa , it felt almost treat like , but too much so today i had my toffe nut bar for brekkie .
went to bed chilled and not so scared anymore,(by god my tummy wasnt half protesting though)