westiegirl
Gold Member
Yesterday afternoon I sat and looked through a load of old photos on my PC, most of which are from the last 5 or 6 years.
In the great majority of them I looked at them and thought that I looked really ugly and totally awful. Looking at more recent photos I was happier after losing weight on LL and CD. In my most recent photos however I have put about 2 1/2 stone back on and whilst I don't think that I look gorgeous, I do think that I look perfectly fine!
The thing is that I am not really that different in any of the photos but I think that they are all linked to my state of mind at the time of taking. In the older photos I felt fat and ugly and my relationship at the time was breaking down. I didn't feel attractive to my other half at all and therefore when I look at those photos I think I see what I felt.
During my weight loss the compliments were flying but I still don't feel I look that great. Again, my mindset was that I was still not a worthwhile person and once again I felt ugly therefore I think my photos from that period are ugly.
More recently, even with a bit of extra weight on me again I look at my photos and I am generally happy with what I see. My life at the moment is busy and fulfilling. Whilst not in a long term relationship, those people I have seen/am seeing seem to appreciate me and I believe what they say. I have belief in myself so therefore I believe them and consequently I seem to like the girl in the photos better.
I wonder how many of us feel like this?
In the great majority of them I looked at them and thought that I looked really ugly and totally awful. Looking at more recent photos I was happier after losing weight on LL and CD. In my most recent photos however I have put about 2 1/2 stone back on and whilst I don't think that I look gorgeous, I do think that I look perfectly fine!
The thing is that I am not really that different in any of the photos but I think that they are all linked to my state of mind at the time of taking. In the older photos I felt fat and ugly and my relationship at the time was breaking down. I didn't feel attractive to my other half at all and therefore when I look at those photos I think I see what I felt.
During my weight loss the compliments were flying but I still don't feel I look that great. Again, my mindset was that I was still not a worthwhile person and once again I felt ugly therefore I think my photos from that period are ugly.
More recently, even with a bit of extra weight on me again I look at my photos and I am generally happy with what I see. My life at the moment is busy and fulfilling. Whilst not in a long term relationship, those people I have seen/am seeing seem to appreciate me and I believe what they say. I have belief in myself so therefore I believe them and consequently I seem to like the girl in the photos better.
I wonder how many of us feel like this?