MrsLearmouth
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I am not new to dieting - I have been on a permenant diet for the past 7 years but I am one of those people who is always on a diet but only gets bigger 
This week, the truth finally got up and slapped me in the face...it is not normal to weigh over 17 stone. While I have always known I should weigh less, I have been deluding myself into thinking this is normal as it has become the norm for me. The shocked look on poeples facces if they manage to get it out of me regarding how much I weigh tells me something different and although everyone tells me "you don't look it", reality is I do, and even if I don't, my body knows it - I already have hurting knees etc.
I also have pcos and dh and I have been trying for a baby for 5 years in September. I need IVF but can't until I have a bmi below 30. There is no doubt in my mind that my weight is the main culprate with my inability to get pregnant :sigh:
I have never been that commited to loosing weight, despite wanting too more than anything, I always have an excuse, main one being that I work from 8am - 10pm (2 jobs while saving for IVF). I had convinced myself that it is too difficult as I need to have y lunch and dinner at work but I realise now it's only as difficult as you make it.
So my plan - I will be joining weight watchers for the final time on Sunday as this is the only group I am able to attend due to work. I am going to commit the next 3 years to making myself into the happy bubbly person I used to be and WILL be happy with myself by the time I am 30 (I am 27 in a couple of months). I realise now that no quick win is going to work for me, I need to sort out my unhealthy attitude to food and life. Once I have done this, if we still need IVF then I will be in a much better position to go through it both mentally and physically.
I am determined to do this and suddenly have a new outlook on the whole situation. I even have my end of journey "treat" sorted and am planning a boudouir photoshoot which I will do in time for my 30th birthday!
This week, the truth finally got up and slapped me in the face...it is not normal to weigh over 17 stone. While I have always known I should weigh less, I have been deluding myself into thinking this is normal as it has become the norm for me. The shocked look on poeples facces if they manage to get it out of me regarding how much I weigh tells me something different and although everyone tells me "you don't look it", reality is I do, and even if I don't, my body knows it - I already have hurting knees etc.
I also have pcos and dh and I have been trying for a baby for 5 years in September. I need IVF but can't until I have a bmi below 30. There is no doubt in my mind that my weight is the main culprate with my inability to get pregnant :sigh:
I have never been that commited to loosing weight, despite wanting too more than anything, I always have an excuse, main one being that I work from 8am - 10pm (2 jobs while saving for IVF). I had convinced myself that it is too difficult as I need to have y lunch and dinner at work but I realise now it's only as difficult as you make it.
So my plan - I will be joining weight watchers for the final time on Sunday as this is the only group I am able to attend due to work. I am going to commit the next 3 years to making myself into the happy bubbly person I used to be and WILL be happy with myself by the time I am 30 (I am 27 in a couple of months). I realise now that no quick win is going to work for me, I need to sort out my unhealthy attitude to food and life. Once I have done this, if we still need IVF then I will be in a much better position to go through it both mentally and physically.
I am determined to do this and suddenly have a new outlook on the whole situation. I even have my end of journey "treat" sorted and am planning a boudouir photoshoot which I will do in time for my 30th birthday!
