michellebeeston
Full Member
Well I have come to realise in the last few days that I have serious issues with my body and food. Iv always know it but this week iv really acknowledged it. Im 5 foot 3 and weight 12 stone and alot.. (first weigh in will follow in the morning).
Lets begin by discussing my issues. .I consider myself to be a big fat blob. And embarrassment to my OH and children. Im a typical pear...no im not green with a little stalk and possibly a leaf, I have a larger bottom and thighs than the 'normal' person. This is what I always focus on and I cant help it. I always forget my positive attributes and I need to train my brain into thinking differently.
I have been on many many diets. And as far back as I can remember my mum has spent most of her life worrying about her weight and on some sort of diet. She is a binge eater and hides wrappers from my dad. I too do this and I want to break the cycle before it affects my three girls aswell. I want to eat normal foods, not just live on milk shakes or spend my life counting points...I just want to eat without worry. Hence slimming world.
I have done this before and got bored. So this time im going to just concentrate on the food content and not what the scales say..well try. I really want to be able to get out of diet mode and just live. I really think that I have an eating disorder. Its not like anorexia or bulimia....its binging. I joke around saying im part time bulimic, got the binging down to a T, just dont throw up. But swriously, I really do think it must be similar. People are quick to say 'well dont eat crap then' but that only works for so long. I also suffer with depression and anxiety and food is my comfort in times of stress....this I need to change...Before my girls get drawn into this crazy food relationship.
......heres to trying to change my mentality and relationship with food.
Wish me luck....
Lets begin by discussing my issues. .I consider myself to be a big fat blob. And embarrassment to my OH and children. Im a typical pear...no im not green with a little stalk and possibly a leaf, I have a larger bottom and thighs than the 'normal' person. This is what I always focus on and I cant help it. I always forget my positive attributes and I need to train my brain into thinking differently.
I have been on many many diets. And as far back as I can remember my mum has spent most of her life worrying about her weight and on some sort of diet. She is a binge eater and hides wrappers from my dad. I too do this and I want to break the cycle before it affects my three girls aswell. I want to eat normal foods, not just live on milk shakes or spend my life counting points...I just want to eat without worry. Hence slimming world.
I have done this before and got bored. So this time im going to just concentrate on the food content and not what the scales say..well try. I really want to be able to get out of diet mode and just live. I really think that I have an eating disorder. Its not like anorexia or bulimia....its binging. I joke around saying im part time bulimic, got the binging down to a T, just dont throw up. But swriously, I really do think it must be similar. People are quick to say 'well dont eat crap then' but that only works for so long. I also suffer with depression and anxiety and food is my comfort in times of stress....this I need to change...Before my girls get drawn into this crazy food relationship.
......heres to trying to change my mentality and relationship with food.
Wish me luck....