Where have I been at?
Well, as I think I previously mentioned I have been finding the commuting exhausting, been having early nights and still waking up feeling like "what sleep?!". It got to Friday and I caved, A doughnut, a cookie and a chicken wrap later, I felt worse than I started, as I was now tired and full! I had a snickers on the way home and two slices of my dads pizza later.
...then you know what, I went straight back on plan and into ketosis on Saturday...woo...go me....
but...
Then Sunday I was going to see my other half, I was all geared up to go for a nice lunch, but as it turned out he had to work dead early so we only got a measly 2 hours together - I would have been kicked off of the ship before he finished work. This kinda hit me hard, I wasn't prepared to be on plan (if that makes sense) and on this particular day had had to park a half an hour walk from the port. So after walking half an hour in the heat back into town I needed something before I passed out (having already felt a bit dodgy after the walk there too) so I grabbed a cookie in lidl, then soothing myself had a chicken wrap at a pop-up stall followed by ice cream,....now after friday I wasn't worried that this would be an issue since i thought I had made progress, what I didn't take into account was that this time I was in a completely different mind set, I wasn't in a good place and that is when I am not to be trusted.
When I got home I pretty much ate whatever I could grab , and kept going, I knew I was full but it was my emotion eating, not my hunger.
So yeah, here I am. I'm back on it now, still feeling a bit rough, and letting other worries get to me more than I should today, but never the less back to 100%.
I really think I need help with managing anxiety, but after my first attempt at the docs basically leaving me in a worse situation I guess I need to try and work through it myself.
...still tired to top it off too :-/
I had to laugh at the printer - freezer confusion. A friend of mine put milk in the cat bowl... and cat food in her cuppa this morning. One of those days.
Things can build up, its surprising.
The only way to drink the shakes is really really cold. Blah.
Sounds like your doing good
gross, my dad once tried to feed the dogs leftover chilli con carne instead of their food too lol
Hi Ria
Do you think you've got "Cambridge brain" lol. In reality it's probably just because your tired. I do crazy things like that as well when I'm sleep deprived.
I had quite a disappointing first week weight in - 7.5 (historically a first week sees be losing 10+lbs). Anyhow a loss is a loss. Onwards and downwards.
Onwards and downwards indeed, 7.5 is good enough
That's great mel!!!! I wouldn't say no....
Also back on as of today... Will I get off is my question???
Ria you had an amazing first week. Stay focused now... A little slip is ok but it just prolongs this agony!
Yeah I'm back on it, even if I have a slip I promise myself they will never last longer than a day again!
