Lind
Is feeling the love!
This is my second go at LL, I'm not due to start until next Thursday.
I started in June 2010 but had to come off because I had Glandular Fever!
But I am back and I am going to see this through to the end. I lost 35lb in just 6 weeks last year and I have managed to put all but about 9lbs of that back on again.
I have realised 2 things in the 5 months since I stopped LL. The first is I am an emotional eater, I use food to cover my emotions because I am too scared to say what I reallt want to people because I'm scared it makes me vunerable, and now I have gotten so used to doing it that I don't know how to express myself in any other way.
The second thing I have learned is that I am scared of success!! When I came off LL last year I had got to the point where you could really start to see it and people where commenting me. When I got ill I could have made the decision to carry on dieting or at least not put the weight back on. But I did what I know best because it is easier to be the old me than to find a new me.
For now I am going to use this diary to express what I feel and what I want to say to people until I have the courage and the confidence to say it to the people I want to....
I started in June 2010 but had to come off because I had Glandular Fever!
But I am back and I am going to see this through to the end. I lost 35lb in just 6 weeks last year and I have managed to put all but about 9lbs of that back on again.
I have realised 2 things in the 5 months since I stopped LL. The first is I am an emotional eater, I use food to cover my emotions because I am too scared to say what I reallt want to people because I'm scared it makes me vunerable, and now I have gotten so used to doing it that I don't know how to express myself in any other way.
The second thing I have learned is that I am scared of success!! When I came off LL last year I had got to the point where you could really start to see it and people where commenting me. When I got ill I could have made the decision to carry on dieting or at least not put the weight back on. But I did what I know best because it is easier to be the old me than to find a new me.
For now I am going to use this diary to express what I feel and what I want to say to people until I have the courage and the confidence to say it to the people I want to....