:cry: Im strugglin a bit today I dont hav my "crutch" its what I would hav turned to wen Im down... everytime I hear of a baby born its like a knife twisting in my stomach and I hav to deal with the feelings rather than cover them or numb them by pigging out but I wont sabotage wat iv achieved I would only hurt nobody but myself and I cant avoid things only soldier on:wave_cry: