Hi everybody. I wanted to thank all of you for your kind messages, both on my thread and private ones, it means so much to know I am thought of.
The last week and a half has been awful, he died late wednesday the 11th and it was late Friday the 20th before he was back in Scotland. We haven't been able to see him because its taken too long, and I think it may have helped me accept it if I had. The funeral is now planned for next Monday which is nearly 3 weeks since he died I had no idea it would drag out like this.
I'm walking around in a bit of a daze and I still don't believe it, I suppose it will just take time.
I have lost half a stone but its not healthy, I'm now just below my target but its because its really hard to eat. I'm trying as I know I need to be healthy for Hannah but its hard.
I have had to buy some clothes as I didn't have anything smart to wear (I'm not wearing black) and size 10's fit great and in some cases are a bit loose. I'm saddened that Marc never got to see me like this but I know I am lucky as he loved me regardless of size. None of this seems worth it now but I know for myself and my daughter I need to keep myself as healthy as possible.
I wanted to share the 'new me' with him, but I suppose it just wasn't meant to be.
Thanks again for all your kind messages, not sure when I will post again, but please send up a prayer for us on Monday at 1335. I have no idea how we will make it through the day.
Mags
xxx
The last week and a half has been awful, he died late wednesday the 11th and it was late Friday the 20th before he was back in Scotland. We haven't been able to see him because its taken too long, and I think it may have helped me accept it if I had. The funeral is now planned for next Monday which is nearly 3 weeks since he died I had no idea it would drag out like this.
I'm walking around in a bit of a daze and I still don't believe it, I suppose it will just take time.
I have lost half a stone but its not healthy, I'm now just below my target but its because its really hard to eat. I'm trying as I know I need to be healthy for Hannah but its hard.
I have had to buy some clothes as I didn't have anything smart to wear (I'm not wearing black) and size 10's fit great and in some cases are a bit loose. I'm saddened that Marc never got to see me like this but I know I am lucky as he loved me regardless of size. None of this seems worth it now but I know for myself and my daughter I need to keep myself as healthy as possible.
I wanted to share the 'new me' with him, but I suppose it just wasn't meant to be.
Thanks again for all your kind messages, not sure when I will post again, but please send up a prayer for us on Monday at 1335. I have no idea how we will make it through the day.
Mags
xxx