I have crashed and its only day 2!!! I was good all day... I got through yesterday no probs...
I seem to be ok when I work a late shift I drink water all day and spread my packs out...When I work a day shift I sit at work smelling everyones lunch torturing myself!!!
Today I worked a day shift, I never take money to work cos I know I will go and buy out the canteen!!
So anyway I was cool all day...came home had a shake...made a cookie and a bar of chocolate out of the packs...fine...had some water flavour jelly...cool...THEN...
My mum went and made some cheese on toast...she really tried to sneak and do it quietly, even closed the kitchen door but I had to smell it!!
So off I trot knowing exactly what was gonna happen...ate a slice of toast in front of her then as soon as she went upstairs I just gorged myself..now I feel sick about myself!!
I am devastated I switched from CD to LL so that I would stick to it...paying more money and having the counselling
How do I deal with this...do just forget it and start again tomorrow...without the pack recipes (I realise they are more of a trigger for me than an aid!!) Shall I tell my counsellor...as I dont want to start the eating and lying cycle I want to break it!!! PLEASE HELP...I AM IN TEARS HERE:wave_cry:
I seem to be ok when I work a late shift I drink water all day and spread my packs out...When I work a day shift I sit at work smelling everyones lunch torturing myself!!!
Today I worked a day shift, I never take money to work cos I know I will go and buy out the canteen!!
So anyway I was cool all day...came home had a shake...made a cookie and a bar of chocolate out of the packs...fine...had some water flavour jelly...cool...THEN...
My mum went and made some cheese on toast...she really tried to sneak and do it quietly, even closed the kitchen door but I had to smell it!!
So off I trot knowing exactly what was gonna happen...ate a slice of toast in front of her then as soon as she went upstairs I just gorged myself..now I feel sick about myself!!
I am devastated I switched from CD to LL so that I would stick to it...paying more money and having the counselling
How do I deal with this...do just forget it and start again tomorrow...without the pack recipes (I realise they are more of a trigger for me than an aid!!) Shall I tell my counsellor...as I dont want to start the eating and lying cycle I want to break it!!! PLEASE HELP...I AM IN TEARS HERE:wave_cry: