Littleslimmingbee
Gold Member
please dont feel you have to reply. I just need to vent.
I feel like crap. My 6lb loss yesterday doesnt feel real and i am now scared to eat incase my smaller portions have tricked my body into thinking i wasnt 'eating properly'
Oh is on nights and i feel so lonley at home. iv got work 8-3 tomorrow, then 5-9 so wont see him on his evening off. Saturday hes got a stag do and sunday, im working again.
Then hes just phoned me whilst at work with his brother and made a comment about the cupcake course i booked for me and emz for her birthday. Saying it was money we could have 'saved' yes your quite right we couldnt really afford it. We also couldnt afford to re-insure, tax, MOT and fix all the flipping stuff thats wrong with his stupid modified car, but he did it anyways. This is all whilst his brother listened, who said last week that i'd left our house a tip when i rushed out to my second job in the evening. Id left one pan, a plate and cup with a banana skin on the kitchen side. Thats all.
I applied for another teaching assistant job round the corner at another school today. I really flipping want one of these jobs but i know in my heart its not going to happen, i dont have a good education, my experiance is limited and my age is more than against me. and to top it off when i phoned the first school to check my aplication pack got to the headteacher okay, because i had left it with someone who was on the school grounds during half term, and she informed me i'd got her name wrong. Flipping fabulous, i dont even know how i managed to make that mistake. All i could do was appologise.
Im tired and i feel poorly and i dont want to go to work tomorrow. The heavy lifting makes me so tired and it ruins my day with the kids because im barely awake enough.. im constantly on edge due to the fact 6 weeks ago my boss said i clearly wasnt handleing the job anymore because im always so poorly. Iv had my second round of blood tests (second round for this time, plenty in the past!) this morning and i just dont believe were ever going to find whats making me so exhausted and unwell all the time.
and then to top it off some stupid overly camp 12 year old spotty looking bloke working for scottish power just knocked on my door, and asked me four times if i was really the bill payer.. and then still had the cheek to comment on my age after. . and he said he didnt like my pajamas. wtf!?
argh.
again, please dont feel you must reply. I just needed to vent somewhere.
I feel like crap. My 6lb loss yesterday doesnt feel real and i am now scared to eat incase my smaller portions have tricked my body into thinking i wasnt 'eating properly'
Oh is on nights and i feel so lonley at home. iv got work 8-3 tomorrow, then 5-9 so wont see him on his evening off. Saturday hes got a stag do and sunday, im working again.
Then hes just phoned me whilst at work with his brother and made a comment about the cupcake course i booked for me and emz for her birthday. Saying it was money we could have 'saved' yes your quite right we couldnt really afford it. We also couldnt afford to re-insure, tax, MOT and fix all the flipping stuff thats wrong with his stupid modified car, but he did it anyways. This is all whilst his brother listened, who said last week that i'd left our house a tip when i rushed out to my second job in the evening. Id left one pan, a plate and cup with a banana skin on the kitchen side. Thats all.
I applied for another teaching assistant job round the corner at another school today. I really flipping want one of these jobs but i know in my heart its not going to happen, i dont have a good education, my experiance is limited and my age is more than against me. and to top it off when i phoned the first school to check my aplication pack got to the headteacher okay, because i had left it with someone who was on the school grounds during half term, and she informed me i'd got her name wrong. Flipping fabulous, i dont even know how i managed to make that mistake. All i could do was appologise.
Im tired and i feel poorly and i dont want to go to work tomorrow. The heavy lifting makes me so tired and it ruins my day with the kids because im barely awake enough.. im constantly on edge due to the fact 6 weeks ago my boss said i clearly wasnt handleing the job anymore because im always so poorly. Iv had my second round of blood tests (second round for this time, plenty in the past!) this morning and i just dont believe were ever going to find whats making me so exhausted and unwell all the time.
and then to top it off some stupid overly camp 12 year old spotty looking bloke working for scottish power just knocked on my door, and asked me four times if i was really the bill payer.. and then still had the cheek to comment on my age after. . and he said he didnt like my pajamas. wtf!?
argh.
again, please dont feel you must reply. I just needed to vent somewhere.